Secrets Of Me

death note

2010-05-24T01:12:00.002+08:00

I was standing in the dark

Feeling empty and useless

I stare my life before my eyes

I wasn't sure of my existence

I feel the breeze touches my skin

It was my soul floating helplessly

Separated from my body

I tried to shout

But no one cares not even my own body

I stood still staring the endless lane

Looking into the darkness

Looking for a shine to arise

But i know thats not my true wishes

I never had any wishes

I do not want to wish

I want to vanished

and let the tales end

FTIMDC 2010

2010-04-04T13:09:00.003+08:00

FTIMDC 2010 was held yesterday and it's probably gonna be my yearly events since ateh has won the 3rd place last year.

This year she was called to present her collections and was given opportunity to walk on the runway. Such a memorable moment for her and off course for us all. so, should i enter the competition next year? beading the corsets? haha..

Will kinky have her own runway? yes one day i will make it true... :)

Debeads new collection

Blahblahblah..

2010-04-01T14:28:00.001+08:00

Im back in the office feeling so sleepy

I'm lazy to do my things

So i would like to write few things...

Sleep late again last nite

I had a good time, almost won the pool game by myself

Damn Robin is too good.

Rafiee u need more practice! :P

Fussball not as interesting as usual

Robin did thought few hard trick,

so probably we can used it against Malek next time

We need to unite strongly to make Malek cry and beg for us to let him win!

Good backpackers place, i really like it

Thats good enough for our trip in the future.

Lots off bulehhh too :D.

Wonder if we gonna hang out with Robin again tonite at his bar?

Can cuci mata there, probably getting new bulehh?

Oh by the way Malek, fortunately 'they' did not caught us breaking their things last time :)

So, we r free to conquer that place again! Muahaha

Finally :p!!

Tomorrow as usual swimming and hang out with other people plak,

I have no time for my ownself for the past 3 months!!

I need a rest!! i want to just lying down and day dreaming for 1 whole day.

So people, lets plan a one day relaxing trip?

Do suggests date and places.

Lets pampered our self.

sudden death

2010-03-18T23:20:00.002+08:00

I haven't write for so long, i'm so bz with my job. The DoSM project will end this month and my house hopefully will be completed by end of this month too.

However i wasn't about to update my life. I was called to write on this blog after i heard about my neighbor's son sudden death. He was killed in an accident. Probably died instantly. I dont really know the real story yet.

I was so shocked and feel terribly sad for the family although i never speaks with him. What i had in mind was, he' young only 22 or 23, he still studying, he's the first born child, he's the man of the house and his parents really pay alot for his future. He died without warning.

I was like ... OMG what if that happened to me. I died suddenly. The moment u wake up u were in different world... u have so many unfinished business... but u are not able to turn back time. Im just not ready yet...

Life is too short, we have no power upon our faith. Is it worth living if we wont be able to get a better life after death? Its a big questions... where our faith will lead us to in the after life?

All of this is in our hand, but when should i start care about it?

Lately i don't give a damn about what ever happened, i just say to myself 'WTF, we will die anyway. " Is it really that easy? or im being ignorance due to everything that had happened to me?

Living life that way is so easy, then why did i felt so sad with his death?

All the weird things in my mind lately... is seriously weird... should i listen to it?

Happy 2010!

2010-01-03T16:35:00.004+08:00

Happy 2010! i always love this number :P

So as usual lets list out my complete resolution:

1.Camera - Completed hehe got myself new Nikon S600, im quite satisfied with it except the battery heat problem and the poor video capture. Going to send for services and try ask for the new 1.
2. Hand Phone - I want e66 - Completed but not e66 :(
3. Forecast for at least RM5k profits from my online business - hope i can :P - At least half of it, i wish i have more time!
4. Fly to Indonesia and makes business with Indonesian wholesaler - Not Completed
5. Take IELTS - Not Completed
6. Apply for Scholarship/Master degree - Not Completed
7. Expand my business. - Yup just started
8. Buy my own apartment for investment - Not Completed
9. Take my mom and my sis & bro to Redang - Not Completed

Looks like most of my last year resolutions is not completed. Jeez..

Ok My 2010 resolutions
I havent really thought of any great resolutions for 2010. Perhaps try to complete the resolutions i havent completed yet

1. Fly to Indonesia and makes business with Indonesian wholesaler
2. Take IELTS
3. Apply for Scholarship/Master degree Plan to take Master on 2011.
4. Expand my business. Gain more money from internet business or any other online methods
5. Take my mom and my sis & bro to Redang.
6. Going to universal studios Singapore
7. I plan to go to any of this country (depend on my bonus) : China, Korea, Indonesia, Thailand or Australia
8.Open my own boutique

Recaps off a few good and sad memories through 2009:

Good Memories

1. I get rid the kind of human that eat their own friend. Thank GOD!

2. Went to USA for 3 weeks. Its so AWESOME! I missed Hollywood so much
4. Went to Singapore again to attend conference.
5. Find new "port" for my kinky.
6. Yeah again - a Very Big Bonus!!
7. Kinky sales much more than before. :)

Sad Memories

1. My beloved acky died

I learn alot of things last year.

1 interesting thing i learned is, to get a better and happy life is just by getting rid of people who gives u so much problem and burden u in unexpected ways. Life is too short to care for others who dont care about u.

Do not gives all my knowledges to anybody even to the 1 closest to me unless they can give me enough benefits hehe

I'm still hating my job, but happy that now i have lots of new experience with my job. Just cant wait to get off for a better benefits. But i think i would love to get my Master first or simply continue with PHD. :)

Marry? is not in my to do list yet. Nobody is interesting enough around me. 1 thing for sure, i want to marry the guy i love, i do not want to end up living with somebody i hate most or living in unhappy life. What for getting married if all u get is pain?

Above all i would like to enjoy my life to the fullest! I'm looking forward to do so much of travelling! yippie.

Avatar

2009-12-21T11:56:00.003+08:00

My life hasn't been that normal lately. So i got my sweet revenge last weekend after a long busy months i had. It was a terrible life doing DOSM & BGSP project. Our frustration is due to the ignorance we received from our management level. It's been 4 years and nothing has been change to improved certain thing and all the management fuss that yet to fulfilled makes us feel even bored. It makes "us" want to run away, but we cant. We've been bond. So the plan was to see how our management will appreciate us by end of this financial year. If not we just have to do something about it.

So what i did during weekend: Eat what i want to eat, spent my credit card without thinking (luckily i forgot about keyboard or plasma tv or video cam or nokia e66, still have my senses i guess), playing pool and fussball, watched 2 great movies: Storm Riders and Avatar.

There's no other word for Avatar besides AWESOME!! Especially the idea of glow in the dark world. I wish i have that kind of garden in my house too. Can we do that? Like pour some glow in the dark liquids on the plants? Do u think heaven will have that kind of garden? It must be awesome!

Jake Sully attitude in that movie is so i like. His blue face seems cuter then his normal face :P. I love the beautiful hanging garden with waterfall running down, the network ideas in pandora is so cool though looks a bit disgusting when they trying to connect their "network". Not to forget the flying dragon. The movie blended very well with the CGI and real characters as well as the exotic world of pandora looks so real. It seamless. I'm obsessed with Avatar now, so I'm gonna watch Avatar again, this time in 3D, probably at IMAX. :P

Wow we are celebrating New Year next week! Year 2010. Sounds promissing isn’t? Or it's just another boring year that i have to face? Doing things i dont really like? Or should i spend all my money to go for Europe tour before 2011? hehe. Damn it UK is asking for us to pay their VISA for RM1200!! that's so crazy. I wont pay for that. Never mind we'll see what will happen next year. All i know is i want to go for a long vacation again somewhere outside Malaysia.

As for this week, i have to settle all the PAT error in DOSM followed with 3 days wedding on weekend.

2.30 am in a cold nite

2009-11-24T02:30:00.002+08:00

I'm still awake,
In the middle of the night,
Listening to my bro in law snores,
Sing along with Taylor Swift,
and Avik as my companian from far away.

It's 2.30am,
I'm still sitting here on my chair,
Looking at my laptop,
Trying to solve my modeling,
and its not working.

It's a countless night,
I stay awake in the middle of the night,
It's countless free hours im working,
For my fortune next year,
Which i dont assure i can get.

When will this end?
I'm so tired.

Huhuhu..

It's all about childish & greediness

2009-11-08T00:52:00.003+08:00

Life has been super bz with works. My life is all about my works day and night. 2 projects to be delivered at the same time which is in another 2 weeks. Lots of drama going on. I slept at 1-2 am lately. My body aching all over... i need a massage. Pheewww..

Today was so nice but still damn tiring, cause i went to KL looking for tiles, toiletries and kitchen accessories. Yes, my loan is approved so hopefully everything went fine with my house renovation.

Me n Rafiee went to Petaling street 2 times tonight and almost bump a savvy yer.. nasib baik klu tak bertambah lagi la drama di bulan ini. After he got his LV bag, we went lepak at syed eating satay. Yeah i missed my lepak time. Can't wait for my project to finish. So this is all the updates for now. But this is not really the reasons of today title. Let me tell u about childish and greediness.

Lets start with greediness...

Today i just found out 1 of the reasons why that bitch did what she did. I know i suppose to close this case. But i feel restless if i didnt write about it. Cause the reason is so sickening n unbelievable n i hate people yang tak sedar diri ni.

U wanna know why? Cause that bitch claim it is all because of her ONLY hard works. So she have d right to do what she did (in an "innocent" way cause i bet up till now she thought she's not doing anything bad towards us). She said:

1- She do all the works

2- She was the one who search for customers

3- 90% of the customers deal with her

4- I didnt do any work at all

5- She was the only 1 who promoting us

6- She do most of the COD(as she claimed)

Does everyone know how partnership works? Does all the partner do the same work? yes and no right. In this business, she work as the marketing here cause i know she's good in marketing plus she have lots of time at her office. so clearly that's what her part is.

As for i am, im doing the management, dealing with dealers, money, and i'm doing all the COD at giant Kelana Jaya, answering all the emails, planing lots of things. At the same time, i do my part promoting our website and deal with customers too.

But that's what partnership is about, having to work together as a team. If u want to think what is right and who has the most domination upon this business just by "getting us all the customers", lets list out my part:

1- I was the 1 who took her to our very first supplier.

2- I was the 1 who trigger us to create our blogshop and start the business

3- I was the 1 who provides the CAPITAL to buy from China

4- I was the 1 who have to take loan to get some CAPITAL

5- I was the 1 who knows where to find the China supplier (and later i teach her which i regreted)

6- I was the 1 who deal with China Supplier (and later i teach her which i regreted)

7- I was the 1 who take responsibility transferring money and did all d dealings with China supplier

So, the summary from the lists above,

I WAS THE 1 TO TRIGGER EVERYTHING IN THE FIRST PLACE!

So, without all this triggering happened, there wont be any Kinky at all!! And off course what she claimed as "all was her hard work and me not doing any work" is useless and no point!!!

Unbelievable i'm living and sharing part of my life for 14 years with a greedy, bimbo and tk sedar diri like this. Why all of us said she's greedy?:

1- She's having this business together with me but she quit and make her own, sell way cheaper then me to steal all the customers.

2- She thought she was the 1 who making us having all the customers and sales thus she suppose to have all the profits, so why would she wants the money from HER CUSTOMERS going into my bank right?.

3- She decided to have her own blogshop once she saw this business is profitable, by cuting our business in not professional way.

4- She dont understand how team works, thus she thought i didnt do any job at all. So it's like im getting all the money because of her.

5- She wants to have the business(money) all by herself only. She don't care about doing it together to make money.

Nah.. i dont need to explain more cause everybody knows how greedy she is.

Anyway, there's always a karma and hikmah behind everything that happen. I'm so glad this happened earlier b4 it's too late. Now i like the opportunity that we had. Hehehe.. i'm loving it and thank God she was out b4 it happens.

About childish..

Yeah this is another shit i have to face this month. Cleaning up someone mess. It's about my team leader. He's our boss most fav engineer. Why? because he's good in talking "big"about his cleverness. But now it was all pecah kedebom terbongkar rahsia.. Who was he all this while???

He just a big fat liar and the biggest childish i ever known. His irresponsibilities has put our project at a stakes, critical condition which we dont know what's going to happen in 2 more weeks.

1 thing i dont understand, this type of people, they dont feel ashame of what they did and they dont feel what they did is wrong.

All this while he was lying about his work, telling our big boss that he finished all his job. But when we checked and tested it.. 80% of his work doesnt work. Can u believe it?? n yet, he still lying about the status even though our boss has found out what happened. OMG.

Everybody dont like his way n nobody bother when he' leaved this company. A few days ago.. he came to our office brought his new boss and talking about making business together. I bet he has feed his new boss with his sweet mouth!

No way me n my colleague going to work with him anymore. He's just a big fat liar. Let's see how long he can live with his attitude in his new office.

I can wait for our trip to Koh Lipe.. i need a holiday badly...

I am so happy

2009-10-09T19:23:00.008+08:00

I never felt this relief and so happy... I have throw away my burden about that bitch. Yes that bitch.. Just to think about it again, we can't really trust anybody in this world. Who knows one day ur closest friend will call u a black pig and start cursing ur physical.

The funny part is, this bitch didn't realize that she became what she is now because of her transformation. Yeah she have a very low self-esteem. So to turn out to be a butterfly, she have to shave her big (bigger then me) triangle-square eyebrow, pluck her mustache and straighten her hair. I'm sure if she remain all those things, her husband will never even notice her in the first place! I still remember how Ben laugh like hell when he saw her ID card before her transformed. Yet, she wants to kutuk orang lain? Dasar tak sedar diri.

I'm not that surprised why she still don't understand why me n rafiee get so upset with her that we felt she stabbed us. Ok let me tell the story...

What u do if u care about someone? U will want them to be successful and happy rite? Well that's what i did. I know her husband always instable, have problems with work, colleagues hate him especially his boses, always on contracts and have lots of debt. So if i can get her being my partner do something n make extra income this will help her too.

We used to have dreams about being a successful person. I always think of having my own lingerie line.. then 1 day, when i found the supplier, i decided to sell it in blog. The first thing i think off was having that bitch as my business partner though i can do that all myself silently!! But i dont do that. Why? because i care about her. There are other people who want to join me but i said "No, i can't i will make Syareena my business partner cause this is our dreams" this is what comes out from my mouth all the time.

From there, i start buy n selling lingeries but it's not enough, i want to try further and gamble with china supplier. So i took a loan so that we can have a bigger capital to make the business bloom. I dont care if i have to take the loan n that bitch just have to pay me every month. This is what im willing to do! In my head i always thinking about us being successful. So i dont really berkira much.

Then things start to change. I notice her changes, at the same time she start to push me away.. I give space to her and i just cant believe that bitch said i dont care about her, whenever i called or sms she dont care to reply but she can call, ym and contact rafiee! WTF! Then when i asked her to stay with Kinky.. she gives me unevitable reasons so that she have to quit. Do u know how i felt that time? I am so sad cause its not even 1 year and all my dreams about us being successful is just merely a game to her... which obviously she DONT care at all.

So fine, im really fed up with that bitch. Then she told me she's gonna stay in Perak but tadaaaa. She stayed there for 1 week n came back here and when i asked to hang out she dont want. n yet blame me for not care for her? WTF!

Then, 1 day i had an email telling me about that bitch new business. So what do u think i will feel?? Of course i feel anger! I just cant believe she do this to me! I cant believe she quit just to make her own blogshop! I said to myself.. "she's fooling me all this while, she never care about our business at all. She just want to suck my brain, and when its enough.. she will do it herself!!" It's not only me.. u can ask anybody about this and everybody will said it's so bad! So it's logic for me to get angry!!!

All this while i take her, bring her in and work hard to make us success - she quit - she make her own lingeries business with the same supplier with my customers and with a way cheaper price - and yet she dont feel that she HURT us?? Is this a friend??? Can u call this a friend?? She surely dont have heart at all!

Definitely NO, she dont care about her friends. That's why she dont feel it is a bad thing to do. She think oh this is business world. FUCK YOU! Then she attack saying me as im always right always show off over the head and always being a moronic?? Aint this a personal attack? So i just have to spill it.. n yes i am so very2 reliefed i spilled it on her face hehe..

Thats the best feeling of relief i ever felt in years. My burden about thinking of her all this time has been thrown away with only a few paragraphs. I should do that way earlier...

Then after seeing that bitch got sawan babi with her husband. It makes me smile even more cause well people saw that she's being at her lowest point. People read her curse as "I just cant believe Syareena is like this" nobody said "i cant believe Zilan is like this" hahaha .. i'm so so happy...

Apart from that, i make her show the real her.. what are in her black mud shit deep in her heart all this years about me. I think she have to do a lot of samak haha.. yerla she's been with the pig for half of her life! Nobody believe her though. Off course cause she makes fool of her ownself in facebook. Again that makes me sooo happy!!!

Im sure she wont believe a thing i said here. Cause for her i'm acting like im always right all the time. I bet, if she had a "lower" friend in high school, she wont even passed her SPM haha.. it's so obvious what she can be when she's around with the "lower" friend of hers in Uitm.. it only took her 1 semester to graduate! haha.. so u should be thankful that u have good friends (all the hanjeng) here. Just look at how u turn out to be when u with ur husband. Nobody believe that u r what u r now. Especially after reading ur comment about me. :)

Well, i really want to c how far she can go with her own brain hehe. Maybe this is the time she can tell the world that she does has a brain after all. So later she can't blame me right?

Whatever happen after this, u just go to hell k! .Don't beg me to accept u back.. sanggup ker jilat air ludah sendiri??? kahkahkah.

I still cant stop thinking about her baby.. i was wondering akan terkenan kah? cause u know being pregnant is so sensitive! My aunt had an experience b4. When she pregnant a sales person came to her house and out of nowhere she just said in her heart "ewww he's so black", when she gives birth, her daughter has black skin as the guy he hina, though her parenst has fair skin..

So i was wondering, what will it be when that bitch cursed about me for 1/2 hours?? Plus its not only the mother but the farther cursing me too! Thats a double point isn't? The best part is she does said black pig, ugly, hairy, stinky.. what a cool combination. Uhh...Uhh i cant wait!!

Hahahaha..

Never felt this happy for years....Case closed for good! Amin.

This is what Syareena really thinks of me after 14 years of friendship

2009-10-08T14:34:00.010+08:00

Want to know when people can get sawan babi? Yeah when they have no point to talk and actually all this while their heart is full of hatred to me which im surprise i dont know (for example ebeg). Off course la i dont know im that horrible towards her or perhaps toward everyone in this world even to the worms in the ground, cause all this time she have the sweet mouth who makes u feel like she actually is ur real friend. But hey, i think maybe because nobody wants to befriend with her, i mean to make her their very2 best friend. Thats why she stuck with me for 14 years.

Untill recently, there r someone who actually adore her n worship her come to her rescue. All of a sudden she realized, "hey why all this while im being her dog?". Well thats what she call my friends (actually her friends too), they all hanjeng katanyer.

All this while, all my words that she listened, all my ideas ( especially lingeries) that she listened and help me do is actually something that she thought as "berlagak macam pandai, everything she knew, mmg dasar berlagak, everybody hate her for that" everything tu!! hebat betul. Well those are things she herself working on right now as well! Yeah there are people who suck ur brain first then when its enough.. they flew away and use the brain that she called as "berlagak pandai" for her own purpose. Well at least i have degree and i am successful in a way kan. Not some one yang menganggur haha.

Misai ni tangkal rupanya! baru aku tau gituuu haha.. Well, at least with this misai, i had feel real love. The real love that she never had even though dah buntingkan.. What to do dah ader baby kena la stick kan. Takkan nk jadi ibu tunggal. Oh sorry, i think she already found the love now since well it looks like both of them are so perfect to be together (just check out their babling below). By the way for ur information Ilah, she chose u cause she scared she will be anak dara tua, yerlah at that time being dump 3 times, and nobody wants to love her sincerely. If not, u r just not her taste.. u r bright enough to use money to persuade her.

Why she had been dump by 3 guys when she is way beautiful and prettier and smells so good and off course not complaining and not berlagak? Well its them to know what's the reason right?? hehe well u can guess why if u r clever enough.

Well, my family is a nice people who don't pretend to be so charming and so nice and dont have the busuk hati kind towards her, Infact they all love her the way she is and kept on praise her beauty and softness(rupanya berlakon jer kot selama ni). But well i never thought that her family can be talam dua muka, infact, when did i berlagak with her parents, i can count - less then 10 hours i ever talk or sembang with her mother for 14 yrs!!!? Funny, or perhaps her parents feel that way because im successful? and their daughter not? Only God knows right.

Well, since im so fucking bad, dark, and ugly, got mustache and always over the head towards all my friends. I was wondering, are all (at least more then 5 friends) of them are pretending to be my friends? She who are so nice, beautiful, soft person and lovely has no friends at all? (well who wants to be called hanjeng right? plus besides us who else close to her???? NONE)

Yeah i wonder why.

That is why when someone have hatred comes in between, and u support them. U can end up being alone. I'm so sorry for her.

My US pics

2009-09-25T17:42:00.003+08:00

Finally i manage to upload more pics of me in USA in Photobucket. So check it out ok. :)

http://s230.photobucket.com/albums/ee62/z-LaN/My%20Vacations/USA%202009/?albumview=slideshow

Selamat Hari Raya

2009-09-14T12:44:00.010+08:00

I would like to wish all my friends

Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin

Almaklum la setahun ni penuh dengan segala keje2 keji mengeji, ngumpat mengumpat, hina menghina, syak wasangka, terlepas kata atau sebagainyer la yang mendatangkan dosa secara sengaja atau tk sengaja.

Maka dihari baik dan dibulan baik ini aku mohon ampun dan maaf serta halalkan makan dan minum aku yer.

Untuk tahun ni maaf la tkder open house, tapi still open untuk sesiapa yang nak datang raya. bagi tau la awal2 takut dapat rumah kosong plak :p

Buka Pose di Thai Thai

2009-09-06T21:07:00.001+08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog. Im super bz with my work – that damn e-Tanah project. Why i call it damn? because out of sudden, those people came back to us and ask for our services and preparation for proof of concept. It was like 2 weeks ago. Imagine i have to recall the application that we have built 2 years ago in 2 weeks, plus additional functions request by them! Correction here.. i didn’t built anything cause its all codings, programming stuff. Those are invented by Tony. Yeah so u can guess it right??? I need to understand those codes in 2 weeks! Off course i dont understand anything.. so as usual had to ask help from the only programmers we have in our company.. if she resign, we all doomed i tell u.

I was struggling day and night to prepare this e-tanah presentation. Next wednesday gonna be hell for me. Cant wait for this thing to finish. But there are 2 more things 2 settle until end of year. This is crazy!

So last Monday Rafiee officially becomes my new partner. I’m so glad for that. I hope Rafiee wont be the “half way” person too like someone i know. Hopefully la.. Right Rafiee?? u promise ur commitment so i hope we can make our “dreams”comes true soon hehehe.

Acky died last 2 weeks.. :( im gonna miss him.

We had a good dinner at Thai Thai.. the steamed fish was so delicious but Tom Yam is just ok. These food is way better then buffet at Sunway Hotel. So enjoy the pics ya!

Oh! one more things.. i cant believe i spend Rm1k++ for a gold bracelet.. jeez.. US gives me a bad bad shopping habit.

Memories

2009-08-14T23:31:00.001+08:00

There are times i’m so eager to write about my vacations or occasions however i forgot 2 put it due to time constraints. So here are some pics to share:

KL TOWER REVOLVING RESTAURANT

Me infront of KL Tower; KL tower: View from the restaurant - 250m above sea level

KLCC area

The Restaurant

Looking down from here is pretty scary, so at first i took pic sitting next to the window. Then a waiter approach me n demonstrate to me that he can lie down on the window and asked me to do the same thing while he took my pic. I was pretty nervous but then i just do it! so here 2 of the pics me lying down on the window :p

CAMERON HIGHLAND

Strawberry park resorts, nice place to stay

Strawberry farm

Tea Boh farm

Cameron Bharat plantation tea shop

Lata Iskandar and the right pic is Todi fruit and that’s the juice really nice, taste like sea coconut

MORIB

Missed my long hair :(

The best activities was built our first sand castle ever! never thought we made it

The uncle on the right actually wanted to create his own castle, but he end up dig a hole n sleep in it hahah.

BAGAN LALANG

One of my favourites photo album, we have great time there and took lots of beautiful happy, fun pics…. n why i dont hv the rest of our pics jumping n playing with our shadows??????? got to find it first. So guys, when is our next trip???

Aku nak Merapu

2009-08-10T22:34:00.001+08:00

Malam tadi aku dah merapu dgn Avik, lama giler tak merapu. Setiap kali aku merapu atau pun otak aku tgh light headed aku prone utk bocorkan rahsia diri sendiri. Well, kiranya mamat tu bertuah la dpt korek satu rahsia evil aku. Giler apa aku nie… Kelakarkan, orang yang aku tk pernh jumpa n sgt jauh tulah yang lebih mudah utk aku berbincang, berborak, share rahsia and care psl aku. Tapi lagi sorang tuh nth mana menghilang la plak. Ni mesti kes br pindah rumah baru ngn awek dier tu, tk suka aku bila pikir psl awek dier. Bosannyer dier tkder sbb dier antara penceria hari2 aku yang plg utama. Somehow dier mmg best. How i wish ader org mcm tu kt Malaysia ni ha.

Sejak balik dr US aku rasa makin banyak tekanan. Tekanan palig berat adalah bila aku terpaksa bgn tidor setiap pagi dengan rasa yg sgt berat and menyampah untuk pergi ke ofis. Aku dah thp mmg tk kuasa n dh tk tahan ngn keje aku. Aku dah bosan n dah muak. Daripada aku berminat dengan GIS, aku terus hilang minat sbb keje aku tak fit my expectations. 3 thn dah cukup lama untuk aku beri harapan yang tinggi tapi aku tetap akan dihampakan. Lagi satu thn utk aku redah… huhu.

2 – 3 hari lepas aku baca pasal sejarah minangkabau. Dpd sejarah tu, orang minangkabau sangat dikenali dengan kaum yang mementingkan pelajaran, bijak, menghasilkan ramai ilmuan dan pemimpin yang hebat serta orang yang paling kuat merantau dan hebat berdagang. Patutla selagi aku tk berjaya dalam perniagaan aku rasa sangat2 tk tenteram. Aku jadi resah. Mungkin sbb dah ader dlm darah kan. Bukan sebab aku materialistik, tapi sbb aku nak menjadi seorang yang sangat berjaya yang bermula dari bwh. Sesuatu yang aku ingin banggakan.

Setiap kali aku dapat satu idea perniagaan, aku dapat rasakan perasaan yang sgt berkobar2 untuk menjayakan idea aku tuh. Tapi masalah aku, aku bukan sorang yang akan memulakan sesuatu. Pendek kata sangat pemalas and takut gak hehe. Aku lebih suka untuk bagi idea and improves things from there. Tapi sejak awal thn ni aku cuba untuk berubah, buat sesuatu yang berbeza sbb aku dah bosan ngn everyday life aku. Mmg susah kalau tkder siapa utk back up aku. Waktu2 tu la aku akan rasa sangat2 lonely and sepi. Saat2 tula aku mengharapkan seseorang utk berada disamping aku n care and bagi semangat yg cukup utk aku. Saat itulah aku berfikir, semuanya dah berubah. Aku tak rasa sesecure dulu lagi.

Maka aku terpaksa mengignore everything and just accept it the way it is. Aku dah tkder orang yang boleh aku buat borak in depth or share something deep with passion like it was b4. Somehow those people have gone. At the age of 27 and aku still takder rumah, takder nama and takder apa2 yang boleh dibanggakan adalah sangat2 depressing. Aku mmg jeles tgk orang yang berjaya, aku mmg jeles sbb kenapa aku tk boleh jadi mcm diorg? Kenapa aku masih ditakuk lama? Kenapa aku tk buat sesuatu utk jadi mcm diorg?

Sometimes mmg aku ader terpikir nak laki kaya jer n just stay at home main PS 3… boleh? hahaha. Semua duk kecoh pasal bila aku nak kawin, bila aku nak ader bf. Hmm.. mmg aku langsung tk pedulik. Macam la aku tk leh hidup tanpa laki. Kalau ader suami aku.. adalah tu klu tkder apa aku boleh buat pun. Aku tkder kuasa nak tentukan. Apa2 pun ini bukan priority aku skang. Tambahan dgn segala jenis laki disekeliling aku ni buat aku lagi susah nak percaya kt lelaki. So, aku tkder masa nak pikir secara serious psl kaum ni. Lagi pun aku mmg tk leh nk kikis perangai choosy aku. Kalau ader yang berkenan pun jenis tak sunat jugak. Camner aku nak elakkan? Dahlah jenis tk sunat pastu bengap in “common sense and indepth” matters. Lagilah payah. Pelik apasal susah sgt nak carik lelaki yang boleh buat aku happy, buat aku impress and buat aku rasa tak bosan? senang jer kan kriteria tu hahaha.. :p

So back psl business nie... lagi satu masalah aku nampak akan timbul. Kenapala tkder orang yang betul2 serious kt sekeliling aku? Susah betullah. Ni yang tambah depress nih. Nyampah betul nk pikir. tapi apa leh buat dugaan. Sometimes aku menyesal jugak kenapa aku tk pernh berkeras dengan apa yang aku suka. ngn apa yang aku betul2 nak jadi? Aku suka binatang, aku suka benda2 sains and biologi, genetik, sejarah, psychology… benda2 ni aku mmg suka tapi kenapa aku tak apply utk bidang2 nie dulu? Yer semata2 takut tkder keje bila dah habis belajar. But to think of it. Better aku belajar n buat apa yang aku betul2 suka. So aku takkan rasa daily life aku wasted bila aku buat sesuatu yang aku tk suka.

Semua manusia tk pernh puas, yer betul tp nak buat mcm mana klu mmg rasa tk puas. betul tak? Still kita ader masa utk ubah segalanya. In my case now if only aku ader banyak duit utk buat apa yang aku nak buat huhu.. berangan la. Tapi dr angan2la br akan ader kejayaan. Aku mmg tk suka orang yang tk jauh pandangan and tk tinggi angan2. Aku suka orang yang mempunyai cita2 n akan cuba capai cita2 dier walau apapun terjadi. Aku pun nak jadi orang yg mcm nie… Aku dah waste 8 yrs of my life for not doing anything i want to do and planned since i was in school. what a waste. So i ought not to waste anymore time. Aku tk pedulikla. aku tetap akan cuba secara serious dlm 1 thn nie. When my expectations achieved… aku dgn senang hati akan melompat ke dunia baru aku sepenuh masa. 1 year… 365 days… 8760 hours. I need my luck badly!!!

Bilalah gossip girl nak sambung nie. Talking about gossip girls, mmg aku mengharapkan utk mempunyai relationship mcm S & B and to have someone like C. Tapi aku rasa in reality there’s no such thing as that. Mengarut je. Tapi kalau ader mmg sgt la best. What to do, human are selfish, all of us are selfish. I dont think those type of caring really wujud. Berangan la… sgt2 berangan. Yup sometimes dengan beranganla aku boleh lupakan banyak benda and aku boleh mengukir senyuman semula…

Nora’s Engagement Day

2009-08-05T21:47:00.002+08:00

Exclusive Nora’s pic here, even Nora doesn’t have it yet haha. Congrat’s Nora& Hisham.

Unbelievable!!

2009-07-30T20:56:00.010+08:00

I had 2 ridiculous horror dreams last night prevent me from sleeping. I stay awake from 4 am updating my blog and other things i have left for a month. i played with my cats while waiting everybody to woke up. I felt better then yesterday though my sore throats and coughs still the same.

Around 8 am i drove to OU dropped my bro there and drove to University Hospital. I went to the public clinic took my number and sit there alone waiting to be registered. I got few sms from my collegues which i felt a bit irritating cause i'm nervous and at the same time people kept asking my condition and telling me to go to Hospital and yadayadayada.. So i just silent my phone and waited while filling up my stomach with crab balls and some other stuffs.

About 10.30 my number appear i went to the desk and told her i want to check for H1n1. She told me i suppose to go to the emergency ward instead. This makes me even nervous. So i walked to the emergency ward, saw nurses helping helpless people from ambulance, some people are not breathing and there's a guy with blood on his hand and no body to attend my registration. So i keep on waiting, about 1/2 hour i manage to registered and have to wait in front of Consultation room.

This is the pain in the ass for me. For real emergency ward waiting time is way longer then their normal clinics! I just sit there, walked back and forth looking at people with 'what the fuck u looking at' look. After 1 hour or so they called me into the consultancy room and again asking me whats wrong with me. Why the hell they asking me that question in the first place? The should write it down on my profile duhh! So, they check my temperature n my blood preassure i guess then ask me to wait AGAIN.

Tick Tock Tick Tock... The guy who has blood on his hand that came earlier then me is still waiting. That time all i can think off was, if i had emergency i will never go to government cause that freaking pain in the hand and yet nobody take care of ur wound for more then 3 hours?? I'm getting angrier and forgot about the h1n1 thing, it's almost 2.30 pm, i'm so hungry and yet i dont know when they will call my name.

that moment all i can imagine was to make chaos in that building, play dead, or smash their windows, punch anyone who walk pass me, or just shout like crazy monster. Anything as long as i dont need to wait. If its not because of my bos want me to go to Hospital i really dont care n just walked out from there. Well, i already walked to the lift when they call my name finally.

Ok this is the best part.... (though some of the dialog are "upside down" but the content is still the same)

I walked in, the Dr greet me and yes the famous questions

Dr: "why? what's wrong"? , i smiled and said

Me: "I wanna check for H1N1"

Dr: "Ok, so when did the symptom appear? since when?"

Me: "Since monday, had terrible coughs and flu"

Dr:"Do u have fever?"

Me: "On monday to wednesday but today im ok a bit"

Dr: "Yeah u don't have fever today, so do u have asthma?"

Me: "No"

Dr: "Do u have heart disease, diabetes, high blood preassure or any critical disease?"

Me: "Not that i know, i never checked"

Dr:"So u dont have those critical disease, and u dont have fever. ok let me check ur breath"

So she's checking my breathing.

Dr:"Ok, i will give u Panadol and if u dont want to take this medicine is fine with me too"

Me:" So, u don't need to check whether i have H1n1 or not?"

Dr: "No, u still young, strong probably if u get H1n1 it will just cure by itself"

Me: "U mean there is no test like blood test or anything to make sure i dont have H1n1? Cause my boss really want to make sure im free from that virus or else he wont let me in the office"

Dr: "There is, but that only for people who have critical disease and if u have difficulties breathing"

At this point i already laugh with disbelief look at her.. she understand my look and said

Dr:"Well i probably had lots of H1n1 virusses in my body but well i'm still ok"

What the fuck - i think

Me:"So when should i come here in case i have H1n1? when i can't breath?"

Dr: "yeah u can come here when u have difficulties to breath (laughing her head off) but not until u can't breath that will be too late.. then only we do the test to u"

Dr: "I really dont understand why young people always come to check for H1n1 it should be old people that need to be checked. Don't worry the minor h1n1 can be cure with normal medicine, and well u can come if u have difficulties to breath. Thanks"

Can u believe it??? I waited for about 5 hours in the hospital to get a panadol "if i want to" and "we only checked if u have difficulties to breath" oh and "do come again if u have difficulties to breath"!!!

It's amazing! If it's so that "nah its nothing to worry about way of treatment", then why the hell they make chaos about who ever have the symptoms or have direct contact with the patient u must go n check to hospital???

Better make a big sign saying "If u have difficulties to breath or i must said almost die then only we checked whether u infected or not" WHAT THE FUCK!

Wasting my time. and if i'm dead cause i dont know whether i have heart disease or high blood preassure or diabetes then who to blame??

Oh yeah.. if i have difficulties to breath i'm sure it will take another 4 hours for my turn to be checked. Or as per my experience, i dont have asthma, so what they did was they just ask me to sit and wait like normal patient though i said i have difficulties to breath. They dont care unless u faint that instance. Stupid. Oh yeah, 1 fucking Dr told me jenis perli nih .. next time try not to wear tight bra or tight shirt. Helloooo those symtoms was due to depression not due to bra or shirt idiot. I know la when i cant breath due to my bra or shirt. Duhhh!!!

That's why i hate hospital and Dr.

Swine flu?

2009-07-29T20:27:00.002+08:00

I'm back and i'm sick. I had a terrible flu and coughs since monday, not much of fever but since i just got back from US Dr gave me 2 days MC. After 2 days i went to work, after like 5 mnts in office my boss came to my place to check my status, he saw im still sick so he kicked me out from office cause they dont want me to spread the virusses and asked me to checked at hospital hehehe.

U know i hate hospital, so i called the H1n1 line and they told me i can go to any gov or private clinic to diagnose me. So i chose the nearest gov clinics. I've waited for 2 hours and when i see Dr she said öh actualy we cant check H1n1 case, though we can but we only check in group not by individual. What the heck!

Dr said the normal procedure is they will give normal medicine first as minor h1n1 can be cured with normal medicine. If i'm getting worst then only i should go to hospital. Duhh.. they give me another 2 days MC hehe. I wish they can give me 1 week MC!

So later this evening, Poh Choo sms me asking how i felt and tell me there are new death case for h1n1 due to late treatment. Yes that does scared me. But somehow im so confident that this is not H1n1 (kes takut pg hospital haha). My flu and my coughs has decrease a bit, not so terrible as last 2 days, but now i felt new symptoms. I feel like vomit, dizzy, shivering sometimes, hard n heavy breathing, tired and my heartbeat increase and if i dont control it i'm sure i can pass out just like before and i really hate this feeling so much. Since i can still update this blog it means im still ok la hahaha. So i guess I must go to hospital tomorrow cause i dont want to die yet.

p/s: hope i wont pass out tonite. :p

US Summary

2009-07-26T07:14:00.000+08:00

I wrote about 4 pages of my 2 weeks of US that i haven’t wrote and it took me few hours to finish it and guess what? it’s too long i have problem published it so i make it in few part so i cut it and this dumb application was hang and save the cut edition only. Damned. So if u guys want to know the real or brief story about the rest of 2 weeks, lets just meet up easier.

I just want to tell u guys that this vacation n trip would be more fun and awesome if i went with more fun people. Yup, im a bit frustrated i mean a lot actually, by the end of the day i just ignore things haha. I am so glad i went to Hollywood on my last day there. It makes me think that perhaps it would be more fun to go with Amy as she’s the kind of “don’t care “ and more sporting. I seriously didn’t expect “she” to be sgt4 cerewet and not that sporting except for shopping hahaha. Anyway it’s fun to go there. Will consider going there again but off course with u “guys” la kan who else can make a vacation damn havocs n so much fun la kan :p.

6th day – Las America

2009-07-12T04:12:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning we walked to the Convention centre, about 5 mnts walk. It’s sunday so the street is pretty empty and lonely. Pic below is a begger, can u imagine a begger do have their own mini tricycle bikes. He just sit there and listen to his radio. Ofcourse there are homeless people,most of them are very old.

The convention centre situated at the bay area and infront of it is the Gaslamp area, lots of nice building n couples of high buildings. The convention centre is huge and long probably 1km i guess. The Esri banner behind me;

We went there for early registration then we walk at the Gaslamp area where they have lots of interesting restaurants and shops. They have strip club restaurant too as shown below. But i dont go in there, maybe next time hehe.

U see the pic above, i would love to try that! but it cost $75 per day rental :( it must be fun riding that. Bike rental is expensive too, $25 per day. Then we took trolley (tram/train) to Las America place, situated at the Mexico border. So this place is full of mexican. It’s actually a factory outlet places where they sell very cheap price for branded items.

The red train is the trolley. Then we took bus to the Las America area. There are lots more shops near that area. Heaven for shopaholics. too bad we arrived there pretty late – 12 pm. It tooks 30mnts to get here from our hotel.

I like the design of the building, the area is really big, we couldn’t manage to go to everyshop as it close at 7 on Sunday. The nike store sells pretty good price ad yes they have discounts and another discounts on top of that. I spent lots of time at Levis store. The price here is about $29.90 and at town or other place the price is $35 or more. I bought like 3 more Levis 2 for me and another 1 for Nurul. Then i bought a Nike shirts $20 for 2 and good quality. If only i have lots more money to shop!

The best discount is the Coach begs. $200 beg sales at $99 only. I just cant believe Coach is expensive! I didnt buy anything cause the design n the price is not worth it at all. But Poh Choo bought 2 items there.

Around 8 we get back to Trolley and reach home. Eat at Sushi restaurant. I have lots to say in here actually but i dont have time to write. So this is pretty much i can write now.

I have great time in Las America, next time i will bring more money hehe

4th day – Training & Lepaking

2009-07-11T18:15:00.001+08:00

Finally my last mission at Redlands end today. Training end early and i’m sure i understand about 10% of what the training was about. Definitely i need to study when i get back.

So, no interesting pic for today. After the training ended we get back to our hotel and i take a nap for a while. About 8 Kenny took us to Citrus plaza again for shopping, but i didn’t buy anything need to save money for San Diego. Then we tried Hawaiian restaurant, we tapau and go back to hotel n lepak2 at the pool area.

We talk until 2.30am, surprisingly. That shows how comfortable we were lepaking with Kenny i guess. He really talks a lot and talks about lots of things with crazy ideas. Haven’t talk to this kind of people for very long long time haha. I really had fun tonight.

U know what, there are several times i was cursing to myself because i’m not imagining things or i’m not purposely imagining things. He was so fucking alike with that bastard when he makes faces!! I dont lie u know. Plus the way he talks n the things he talks its so alike except he’s way is a bit rough.

Damn it. Damn it. Damn it.

Tomorrow we’ll going to San Diego. It will be pretty hard for me to update but i’ll try to update everyday, cause our hotel did not provide free internet access.

Till then. Nite u all.

5th day – San Diego

2009-07-11T04:15:00.000+08:00

Today we have to travel to San Diego for the user conference. We had a lot of problem to find transport to San Diego. The hotel staff didn’t help us that much. This is the first time i think i need to arrange my own shuttle service. Normally if in Malaysia u just ask the hotel to arrange everything for u right? This is not the case in Redlands. We dialed shuttle service no body pick up, then we asked for limo but not available and the cab is way too expensive -$270 for 2 hours ride. Almost Rm1k!! We cant believe US transport is bad.

After like 2 hour searching for transportation , finally their general manager help us by driving us to San Diego and he only charge for $200. Chris is a nice and funny guy. On the way to San Diego a tragedy happened. At 1 moment, when i was talking with Chris, we saw a plastic table on a truck in front of us is losing it’s tie. We just like “hey that table going to fly” then at that moment the table fly to us and hit our car and bounce at the window infront of me. I was lucky the window did not break, it crack only woooo. If not sure hit my face and could kill me too.

Poor Chris, after that he dont talk much and we felt so sorry for him as helping us he got that accident. Then we arrived at San Diego Westin Hotel. We check in and then go out for window shopping hehe, Macy and Horton plaza is connected to the hotel.

Horton Plaza below and rafiee ader LV disitu. Tapi aku tk masuk hehe.

San Diego weather is so good. I really like it. It’s cold as in Cameron highland at night. I’m telling u guys.. damn lots more handsome n cute guys!! Aiyooo.. there r 2 reasons that makes me want to live here – The guys and the weather. Geez.. look at the pic below.. u can see pedicab or beca driver is gorgeous!! I think all of the driver is so hot! Body pun sodapppp…puas tengok diorg nih hehe.

The ride is so expensive 30 mnts city tour = $65, if not i will sure take my chances haha. ‘Syareena, if u r here im sure meleleh air liur ko tengok body laki2 ni.. Man here really work out u know. It’s very few to see guys our age or younger or in 30’s keremping or tak menarik. They even jogged without shirt at noon.

We dont do much activities, cause still tired. The sale is started but i didnt buy anything except $9.90 levis jeans for my brother. Wait till friday when they normally have a better discount. So we had our lunch at Thai time restaurant. not so nice. I missed malaysian food so much. We go back and slept early.

3th day –ESRI training

2009-07-10T15:56:00.001+08:00

Very quick update for today because im too tired to write. Today is very fun except the training part. I dont understand a thing about Oracle and database at all! I totally lost uhuks. need to do lots of research. Die la how to teach people in Malaysia.

Anyway, ESRI building surrounded by lots of trees, it’s really a nice harmony place to work. I’m loving it already. I feel like im having a vacation at a park. U can see below is the learning centre area. Looks like a cottage. Around the buildings there are lots of tables and chairs for ESRI people to have their lunch and i see a weird phenomena that i’m sure i wont see it in Malaysia – man bring their food from home in the special container just like the pic below.

After the class, we met a Malaysian who works in ESRI. I thought he’s an old man but turns out he’s younger and he’s my junior at Seaport. He’s funny and sempoi to lepak around hehe. He took us to the nite market at orange. Very interesting, looks more fun then our night market.

The clown actually just selling balloons. Below are few interesting stalls.

We bought an apple salut with chocolate, its so yummy and quite expensive = $6. Then i dont know what the heck is shave ice cream.

If u see the right pic below, where it covered with net, this is how their stall looks like if they sell food. This is to prevent flies or animals to fly in i guess.. The white tall guy is Kenny, from ESRI and the junior i talk about just now.

Then we walk around the housing area to go to Kenny’s place. We lepak there for a while talking about everything that we can talk about haha.

Finally we went for dinner at applebees house – forgot to take the food pic la.. i order shrimp set and i cant finish the shrimps! its really a big portion.

K that’s all i need to sleep!

3rd day – Redlands Town

2009-07-09T14:30:00.001+08:00

Redlands Town is my destination for today. I spent 1 whole day here. This place is the new commercial area which is really interesting, much better then the downtown area. I think there are about 12 shopping buildings here. Some are long building contained a few branded shop like Marshall, Kohls, Famous footwear etc.

The best shop is Kohls and famous footwear for me. I dont know much about brands, but i think famous footwear gives a good price for branded stuff. Things like Liz claireborn $85 u can get for less then $40. The way they put the display shoes is different from Malaysia. They arrange the shoes according to size as well as shoes box at the bottom of the rack. So u can just pick up ur own shoes urself. I guess they really trust their customers.

I just wondering around and check almost all shops there. Home appliance shop is 1 of my favorite cause i found a few interesting electronic stuff that is not available in Malaysia. I try to find i-robot vacuum but can not found. Thought of buying that for my mom if its cheap.

I found Asian cuisine restaurant, they have all type of Asian cooking. The price is reasonable. I ordered Tom Yum seafood (prawn+scallop+mussel) and it taste almost like Malaysian styles – delicious. The price for Tom yum + rice + hot tea = $15.

The funny part was, after i done eating, i just sit there for a while cause too full hehe. Then the waitress keep on coming to me asking if there is anything i want, i said no. After a few minutes she came back and asked me to just pay the bill. Weird hehe, i think they dont let people just to sit there once we finished eating or they think i dont have money i guess. When i gave her tips she looks so excited. Weird.

A few things i learned from Redlands people today that Malaysian didnt do are:-

They will said excuse me when they walk in front of u
They love to say hello when u look at them
The shop workers will greet u and try to make conversation with u all the time. Very good service.
They will stop their car about >5m far from u to let u cross.
They speak quite slow and very polite kind of way.
Again – there are lots of cute guys here!! Too many of them! They are everywhere! this is so depressing haha.

Lastly i just relax at Starbucks and surprisingly there is no free wireless.

Sleepy already la.. got training tomorrow.

2nd day – Redlands downtown

2009-07-08T14:18:00.001+08:00

Second day in Redlands, feel like its been a week here. I woke up early as we plan to walk around redlands town. We had a breakfast and took the free shuttle service to the citrus mall area. Its about 10 mnts drive from the hotel. Pretty neat place and new area. I can see lots of big shop building, very interesting look and design. I always like to see this type of building hehe, cause we dont have it here. We normally have a big gigantic shopping mall or links shoptlots. We went to Target groceries store to buy mineral water as no water heater in the room. I think our carrefour have more varieties stuff in it. I cant even find 3 in 1 of any drinks at all.

Once we got our stuff, we ask for shuttle to pick us up. They been nice to us hehe. We go up to the room and stay in for a while as Poh Choo sleeping again. She’s still not use with the time changes i guess. about 1 pm, we ask Sandy to send us to the downtown. She showed us the walking path, its about 20 mnts walk only from hotel, but the road to the downtown is really quiet.

We get down at Cajon st. I’ts interseting to see the shops building. All one storey only. Down here i took pics at Mozarts shop. Full of classic, beads and antiques items. Finally i got to see the newspaper machine hehe.

I bet Rafiee will go crazy looking at those cute tea sets. This pic especially for u Peah hehe. Then, we go into “the eating room” as recommended by Sandy as the best sandwich shop in the town. I order tuna melt, big portion but not so good as i thought :P. Its been 2 days eating bread and fish.. i feel wanna puke already. Need to find thai food tomorrow.

We walk to Redlands mall after that. Hmm they are having out of business sales. Sales up to 90%, very cheap but nothing really interesting or “fit” to my fats body :p

Around 4 o’clock we walked back to hotel as Poh Choo already tired and wanted to sleep… haish, im so frustrated. This is the moment i wish syareena n rafiee is here, sure we will explore every street and every shop and wont complained about the heat, distance and how tired to walk here and there. Belo is the last shop we went. Its really cute, its an antic shops.

On the way back, i manage to take the pic below. U can see high brown mountains, no trees at all i guess. We arrived at hotel around 5pm. I cant believe i walked around for 3-4 hours only!

Above all, i feel exciting walking around the town. Tomorrow i have another day to walk around. Plan to go to the new town and relax there :D.

By the way, the conclusion i get for today is – damn, there’s lots of cute guys and obese people in Redlands!!

1st day -Redlands

2009-07-07T11:40:00.019+08:00

Pain in the ass - yes this is best describe how terrible i felt sitting in plane for 17 hours! So, my pain ass journey began at 6 july 09 9.25 am flight to Hong Kong with Cathay Pacific.

We transit at Hong Kong for 2.5 hours. The airport looks big, lots of restaurant there, we ate at Burger King.

About 4.15 pm we boarded to LAX. The flight is better then the first 1. I spent my time watching movies and playing games. Sleep for 4 hours only.

I arrived at LAX about 1.15pm LA time. The custom check went smoothly, nothing idiot ispections being done, still i dont really feel like im in US yet, lots of the workers are foreigners or not white. LAX is under renovation so cant really comment on that. We took shuttle service to Redlands $44 per person, it was a long journey almost 2 hours plus. It's pretty weird to see people drive on the left side. Redlands kind of surrounded by big brown mountains.

We stay at Ayres Hotel, very nice hotel - brand new. It situated about 20 mnts from Redlands downtown. We walked around the area, lots of fast food - subway, burger king, papa johns, mexican food, carl's junior and a few others. The best part for me is to c their buildings, something that u wont see in Malaysia. Below is photo of my hotel and neighbourhood.

The hotel

The Lobby

The room

The neighbourhood

Flying to US

2009-07-05T23:44:00.002+08:00

I'm so excited! Done my last minute packing as usual. 9 more hours before flying to US. Don't know what will happen at airport, 2 things i'm worried are the pig flu & US customs check. Hope they dont do shit to me tomorrow because i'm from Malaysia and a muslim. I had to uninstall all piracy thingy since i heard they will take away laptop's that have piracy stuff. pufffff.... suck. No way they can take my new baby! yes i bought a new netbook asus eee pc. I know everyone knows about this already, but just want to announce it again in here hehehe.

So, i'll be in US for 3 weeks. The first week in Redlands for my training, second week in San Diego attending ESRI UC and the last week for my leisure at Disneyland and Universal Studios.

So untill then, i will try to update my blog everyday :D Can't wait to be in the environment full of white people hehe.. sah2 aku rambang mata nanti hahaha.

So wish me luck guys.

Cronic Headache

2009-06-14T09:05:00.002+08:00

What is the cause of chronic headache?

Looking at PC screen for 13 hours daily?
Thinking bout lots of stuff?
Solving lots of problems?
Trying very hard to find a way to settle things?
Traveling for long hours?
Forcing my brain to the limit?
Ignoring the pre-headache symptoms?
Lack of sleep?
Depress with works?

Or all of the above?

This is the worst headache i ever felt.
Feel like someone is pulling my brain out every time i turn my head to any position.
I can't sleep, when i put my head down, it felt worst. When i close my eyes, feel like it's burning.
I vomit 1 whole day yesterday.

I'm going to c DR today. What if all this happen in US? Or i should just cancel trip to US? I have a bad feeling about all this.

Dan Sebenarnya

2009-06-11T20:39:00.003+08:00

Tiada perasaan kasih di dalam diriku,
Telah ku hapuskan semuanya,
Disebalik mendung ia masih mengingin ku,
Tak pula ku menggapainya,

Dan sebenarnyer perasaan benci ini adalah cinta,
Yang masih bersemadi di hati,
Dan benarkah apa yang ku lalui adalah cinta,
Yang masih aku sakiti,
Tak pula kurasakan ini semestinya cinta,
Yang mati di mamah benci,

Ku dibaluti resah sehingga ku terlepa,
Sakiti diriku ini,
Tiada ku bela,

Ku tunggu panggilan cinta darimu,
Untuk bawa ku ke syurga,
Tapi masakan terjadi,
Jika ku masih membisu.

Dan sebenarnyer perasaan benci ini adalah cinta,
Yang masih bersemadi di hati,
Dan benarkah apa yang ku lalui adalah cinta darimu,
Yang sengaja ku sakiti,
Tak kurasakan ini akan selamanya disana,
Jika ku masih membisu,

Seketika kau memberikan ku masa,
Hanya sesaat ku hargai,
Selautan air mata mengharap rindu mu semula,
Tapi apakan daya,
Ku masih menjauhi mu...

Ku enggan begini selamanya,
Kasih mu ku pinta,
Sinariku dengan cahaya mu itu,
Untuk ku tunaikan janjiku padamu.

Dan sebenarnyer perasaan benci ini adalah cinta,
Yang masih bersemadi di hati.

Mom’s Birthday at Bagan Lalang

2009-06-08T21:17:00.001+08:00

Wonderful day at Bagan Lalang again – this time with my family for mom’s birthday. :)

The restaurant

Fun Time

Sunset

Dinner

5 person set steamboat per table

Chocolate Indulgence cake – my favourite

More vacations coming up soon enough:

Cameron next week :)

Cancel Perhentian :(

I’m going to US & Hong Kong in July :)

Monthly Update

2009-06-04T16:00:00.000+08:00

Wah… this 2 weeks have been the most bz weeks for me. Work + business + entertainment non stop everyday from 8.30 – 12pm. Now I can feel the symptoms of sickness is coming. I really need MC to get a good rest, though I already ponteng keje last week hehe.

Bad and good things that happened:

:) - Took Jonas to Satay Kajang, I brought a camera but forgot to take our pics eating satay! I didn’t know that there are white people doing part time job as a statue at BB street. I don’t think they can get lots of money for that in Malaysia.

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Jonas

:(- I went to Penang to attend my classmate wedding. Stayed at UiTM hotel ALONE which cost me RM110 per night! Macam orang kaya plak kan, cess aku tertipu uhuks. If I knew I’m going to stay there alone spending RM110 for a room, I better book a cheap hotel in Penang and go jalan2 around the town which is more value for money or else just bring my mom along to Penang n go jalan2.

K.Tas & Due wedding

:) - I received my Kinky items this week. Again China mad mistakes by sending the wrong size and short 1 item, bad qualities – complaint to the manager – he will send us the correct items for free.

:( - Too many incontingency cost that added to my cc hutang lagik - Penang, Pahang, insurance, birthdays, swimming etc

:( - Lot’s of things to think – house renovation, Kinky method of payment, Kinky Logo, Kinky marketing, renovation loan, diet thingy, where’s my bonus? Why no increament? can I settle my hutang? Will I go to US? How long should I extend my holiday? When should I go to Cameron? Aiyooo pening kepala dibuatnyer…

:) - 1 more month for our heavenly vacation in Redang (3-5 July)! Can’t wait!

:) - If I can go to US, if I get bonus, if Daniel approve my training, July can be consider as my “Vacation month” - UC + training + extend vacation there (approximately 3 weeks) Muahaha!!

:( - If everything is fine, we will start renovating house this July, meaning I will start to pay for the renovation loan. So those who waiting for me to get married, u’ll be disappointed cause I wont get marry within this 3 years. No doubt of it. Anyway it’s not my priority :P Kinky is my priority now hehehe..

Hanjing ke tak hanjing???

2009-05-23T00:09:00.003+08:00

Meh aku nk lepas tension jap. Ader jugak malaun yang bengap lagi lembab tk reti nak buat keje senang?! Nak key in no akaun pun tk reti! badigol sangat! Aku dah rugi 3 minggu tau! Cibai betul. Kalau customer aku lari macam mana?? Angin betul aku! Nak marah badigol ni tk dpt, lagi la aku angin! Orang mcm ni pun leh jadi bos? leh ader duit dlm akauan 200k??? Lagi mau buat e-commerce transaction? alamat lingkup la, benda senang pun tk leh nak buat ni lagi nak manage hundreds n thousands of transaction???

Ni harapkan China plak tk buat dajal kt aku.. Kalau tidak mampusla aku nak membayar duit customer. Lagi mau kena tunggu 3-4 hari brg sampai. Kalau la aku ader banyak duit just terbang jer ke sana n main tunjuk2 pastu bayar cash angkut brg blk sini, senang cerita!!!!!! Bila la nak kaya!

Amazing Race

2009-05-17T21:07:00.001+08:00

Wow! I joined Amazing Race by Youth Club (Belia 4B)! So not me haha. Overall it’s really a good day for me, tiring and aching.

We start from Taman Jaya, 33 groups involved. Lots of teenagers and bunch of nice looking guys too :P (Dah lama tak cuci mata).

The rules are simple: Using public transportation we had to go to 4 check point and each check points need us to do some tasks involving taking stupid pics, interacting with publics, interviewing strangers and irritating SOGO management haha. SOGO employees makes several complaint about us, saying we r disturbing their customers, cause we had to find 7 name cards and 3 sample of perfume and our marshall sit at the food court for too long! WTF! i was lucky we didn’t get caught but those last groups who went there has been caught by the management! WTF!

Some of the task pics below but the best was – Malek molesting a sexy poster! :P

By 3 pm we arrived at the last check point which is the Umno Building Cawangan PJU. We got no 15 :(, but its ok we dont plan to win haha though in the first 2 check points we r among the top 10. The last group arrived after 5pm.

Above all i had a great day and i think i wanna join this organization, they seem to be actives and the people is ok, especially 1 of today committee hahaha :P. Secret hehe.

xoxo

Mothers Day at Ulu Yam

2009-05-11T20:41:00.003+08:00

Picnic at Ulu Yam :P on Mothers Day

This place is better!

Diet-ing

2009-05-06T13:08:00.002+08:00

Hehhe.. believe it or not. I'm on diet now!

This time i will make it true. I have gain weight almost 6.7 kg in the past 2 years! Exactly 4 kg within last 1.5 years and 2 kg since new year and 1/2 kg within 1 week i'm in penang. This is too much for me :P. So i need to give a few slap on my face and wake up from this nightmare!

I'm taking Herbal life to help me consume enough protein and at the same time make me lose weight. Since i hv small budget, i bought the shape work only, drink it once a day. The full package need me to drink it twice a day and take their Guarano tea as well, around Rm330.

So, the coach advice me to drink it with soya bean in the morning, drink 2L of water till afternoon, lunch, drink another 2L of water till evening and take a small amount of dinner.

On the first day i took this protein, i start to fell hungry since 10 am and my stomach pain around 12. So, i can not tahan i eat all my sandwich and eat rice with chicken and vege too hahaha. What a diet...

On the next day, again same thing happen but this time no pain in stomach and i manage to eat sandwich only. no rice. Good for me.

Then today, i dont feel hungry early and i ate a sandwich only hehehe. I need to work out too. Bought a new shoes so going to jog at least twice a week, do sit up, jumping here and there or whatever la as long as it can help me to lose 3kg. :D

Hope it's going to work cause i have to win my BET with Jon. I'm not gonna loose this BET + i really need to get my actual shape back. Missed wearing all my tiny shirt huhu... hard to buy pants la when i have a big butt and hips. :P

So by this 31st May, i need to loose 3Kg at least if not i need to "bare" something to some body haha. Which i dont plan too. So i guess im gonna win this BET for my dignity hahaha. :P

OH MY GOD!! WHAT HAVE I DONE

2009-04-29T13:39:00.003+08:00

This is really shit! I dont know why i did that! i seriously have no idea why i allow myself to do that. Waawaaa.. Haahahhaa...

Should i cry or should i laugh? I just broke the promised i made to myself. I promised not to do it till the day i died, but look what happened just now!Look! My insanity is controling me!

I even broke my promise during my training lunch time. While surfing on the net!! OH MY GOD!!

I did asked God before i do it, and then i just let my hand n my brain take control of it... Now i'm trembling in excitement and scared maybe..

Why is this happening again!! No!! i dont want to know the consequences!! Why God doing this to me?? Why with all this feeling lately??? Oh My God.. im going to suffer from the consequences.

Or maybe it's a good sign?? NO WAY it wont happen. The good thing will never comes. It's just ridiculous!!

p:s: It's a secret i never tell xoxox gossip girl.

Love Story

2009-03-26T21:53:00.004+08:00

Somehow i feel this part of this song is so romantic, "how i wish it is..."

Romeo, take me

Somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting

All there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince

And I'll be the princess

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me

They're trying to tell me how to feel

This love is difficult, but it's real

Don't be afraid

We'll make it out of this mess

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me

I've been feeling so alone

I keep waiting for you

But you never come

Is this in my head?

I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said

Marry me, Juliet

You'll never have to be alone

I love you and that's all I really know

I talked to your dad

You'll pick out a white dress

It's a love story

Baby, just say yes

P/S:My last weekend activities - Hot air baloons pics here - http://s230.photobucket.com/albums/ee62/z-LaN/Family/Hot%20Air%20Baloon%2009/?albumview=slideshow

Wonderful Picnic!

2009-03-02T23:11:00.049+08:00

As planned, we went to Sg. Tua (Old River) at Ulu Yam on last Saturday. All 6 of us riding on Malek's Estima - cool, this is the first time we went out for picnic together... :P

After about 1 hour of driving, we arrived at Sg. Tua. I just realised that it is actually the Selangor State park. We stop at the third stop n there is waterfall on the other side of the road. The river is way down, so we had a hard time walking down the stairs carrying lots of stuff (seems like we want to camp there for 3 days)! Oh yeah.. we had to pay RM1 per person to enter the park! More over we had to cross the river as they reconstruct the bridge, we walk further up and find a good place to set up our tent.

While Rafiee set up the tent, the rest of us preparing the food. Our menu for the day is steamboat and fried rice. Thanks to Malek's bro who made a tasty Tom Yum for us! Yummy!

Yeah eating time! Full stomach is good b4 we jump in the cold water!

Yay!! The main objectives of this picnic is to celebrate my birthday! Here goes my Cupcakes and a toast from all of us - sparkling pinky juice - :P Very delicious cute little cupcakes! i really eat a lot of that hahaha.

I love the candles too. I am 27 but believe me we all still act like 17! hehe

After good foods and cakes.. all of us jump into the water and use all rafiees props for Cam Whore!

Remember my last post? Yup, about the "Pengembaraan at Sg. Tua"... we were all set up for our short drama. Courtesy of Rafiee's props! I just can't believe of how much props he brought for this short drama. But hell, it's so fun to take pics with those props. So let me introduce the actors/actress!

Princess - Who's traveling to Sg. Tua to seek for a love potion from a witch hoping to find her future hot sexy lover

Nenek Kebayan - the dark witch cum vampire (she has a vampire kind of teeth) awaits for the princess.

Adi Gusti - The problematic split personality man who lust over the princess and was actually her guardian angels.

Prince Gorges - Gorjes as if "Gorgeous " came to rescue the princess but he "fell down" without any forces, get up and yet failed to rescue the princess.

So wait for our movi ok! need to edit here n there first :P

On the way back we stop at the Empangan batu and took some pics.

TO ALL WHO PLANNED THIS LOVELY PICNIC. I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THANKS A LOT AND HUGS TO ALL!

I LOVE THE CUPCAKES SO MUCH :p

P/S: Pics - http://s230.photobucket.com/albums/ee62/z-LaN/Friends/My%20Birthday%20at%20Ulu%20Yam%2009/?albumview=slideshow

Oh My...

2009-02-24T17:10:00.007+08:00

This is funny:

On this day,

A group of friends trying very hard to plan

her best friend's picnic birthday party at an Old River,

Having psychopathic, mentally disorder, control and confused human being

to comes up with a theme for the day.

Thus a legend was created;

"PENGEMBARAAN MANDI BUNGA ZILAN DI SG TUA"

PLOTNYE CANNI...ZILAN (PUTERI) DAH NGENYAM NK JODOH CEPAT...MAKA DIA PEGI JUMPE NENEK KEBAYAN...NENEK KEBAYAN KATE..."CU HARUS MANDI BUNGA BILA MATAHARI PENUH (TGH HARI LA TU HAHAHA) DI TEMPAT YG TIDAK PUTUS PUTUS AIRNYA (SG LA TU)" - GILE AH SKRIP CAM CITER PENDEKAR PLAKS. KEKEKKEPASTU TGH MANDI2 BUNGA BERSAMA DAYANG, DTG ADI GUSTI (ORG JAHAT)

Adi gusti berkata : Wahh …Cantik Sungguh air yang mengalir kat sini …
Terus adi gusti pon masuk ke air ..selepas pose pose maut di depan women women itueww

DENGAN HARAPAN UTK MENG IMPRESS KAN PUTERI. PUTERI MELUAT DGN GELAGAT ADI GUSTI MAKA DIA PUN MEMERCIK AIR SG KE MUKA LELAKI GERSANG ITU. ADI GUSTI JADI MARAH....LALU DIA CAPAI BUNGA YG TERSELIT DI TELIGE PUTERI LALU DIA GIGIT2 DGN GERAMNYA. PUTERI PUN APALAGI, NAIK LAH SELURUH DARAH KERABAT DI RAJA MINANGKABAUNYA...KERANA BUNGA ITULAH YG BAKAL MENJADI BAHAN UTAMA DALAM MASAKANNYA TENGAH HARI NANTI (PUTERI MKN BUNGA JE UOLSS, TAK MAEN AH BLACAN2 NI...NANTI BETA MUCUKK). MAKA ALAM MAYA HUTAN YG TENANG SEBELUM INI TERGANGGU DGN AKSI BITCHSLAP DAN BITCHSMACKDOWN YG SGT 18SG.

Terus kuar Prince yang Gorjes (malek )
Prince pon kata …: aku taste kat adi Gusti ….
(opps Sorry ..Prince Gay ker …sila tukar skrip )

ADI GUSTI JADI TAK KERUAN DAN GELISAH DGN KEHADIRAN PRINCE GOJES. KERANA MEREKA ADA SEJARAH SILAM YG TERLALU TIDAK ENAK UTK DIINGATI (KEOKOEKOE).

GORJES : CIS ..BEDEBAH ..KENAPA KAMU BERADA DI SINI BERSAMA PRINCESS INI

ADI GUSTI : KENAPA BETA TIDAK BOLEH BERADA DISINI …BETA BERHAK BERADA DISINI SEBAB BETA PUN NAK JUGAK PRINCE GORJES UTK MELAMAR BETA
LAGIPON UOL DAH TAK SECOCOK NGAN BETA LAGI …
SUDAH BERAPA KALI BETA CAKAP ..JANGAN GANGU BETA …
THERE IS NOTHING BETWEEN US LAGI ..THERE WAS NO US ON THE FIRST PLACE GORJES ….
GORJES YANG SENTAP ..TERUS MENERPA KE ARAH PRINCESS ….

ADI GUSTI MENGELUARKAN PEDANG NYER : JANGAN SENTUH PRINCESS2 BETA …BETA SEBENARNYA ADALAH GUARDIAN ANGEL MEREKA (SAMBIL TERUS KUAR KEPAK KAT BELAKANG ) ….

HANYA PUTERA YANG SEBENAR DAN BUKAN BISEXUAL YANG BOLEH MENYENTUH PRINCESS2 BETA ….

KELUAR HANG TUAH : BETA SEORANG PUTERA RAJA YANG STRAIGHT

PRINCESS ZILAN : BUT PUTERI TAK TASTE RAJA YANG CAM TUE

DAYANG SYERENA TERUS TERSIPU SIPU : TAPI MAK ENCIK …MAK TASTE…BOLEH TAK MAK NAK …
PRINCESS ZILAN : BOLEH AMBIK LAH ..LAYAK PON NGAN KO ..NAH AMBIK KO ….

SYERENA BERLARI LARI ANAK MENGHARUNGI AIR : SUDAH LAMA AKU KEPINGIN MENYENTUH KULITMU …RAJA DI HATI KU

TERUS BERKUCUPAN DI SITU

GORJES TERGAMAM

PRINCESS ZILAN TERGAMAM

ADI GUSTI PITAM

DAYANG NORA BERSIMPUH

dalam pada itu, adi gusti dan prince gojes tgh eyeing pipi princess yg gebu itu. Mengikut adat di raja minangkabo campuran kerajaan Ayah Pin, sesiapa yg berjaya mencium pipi princess akan dikahwinkan dgn princess sekaligus dapat naik takhta la uolss. Dengan kiraan unee, rendee, nalee...whooshhh!!! bergegar alam maya ini masing2 menggempur princess dari kiri dan kanan.

Tiba-tiba....tingg...princess hilang...~ seperti dibawa angin bayu...(lagu bekgron...angin bayu membawa diriku..sepintas lalu ku terkenangkan mu...-feminin)Rupa2nya princess pakai cincin lord of the rings uollss..utk menjadikkan dirinya halimunan...Berlari lah princess kembali kepada nenek kebayan...

Princess: Nek, penangan mandi bunga nenek sgt kuat...beta hampir kene gondol dgn dua malaun...

Nenek: Tu la hang jugak yg renyam sgt...nenek bagi la 2 in 1.

Princess: Nek saya dh tobat saya takmahu melakukan perkara SYIRIK lagi nekk...

Nenek: Okay la. Nenek pun nak tobat juge. Skang nenek bukak spa kecantikan guna produk tempatan. Mandi lulur + mandi susu kambing...Pakej Wajah Berseri...sesuai la utk u princesss....

Princess: Saya akan choba menjadikan wajah saya lebih berseri dgn produk d'navichee...Sementelah 6 purnama, princess di angkat menjadi duta d'navichee & mempunyai asset sebyk USD 10 juta di bank of nambia. Beliau juga banyak melakukan kerja-kerja amal untuk merebut gelaran Mother Theresa of the Century. Antara kawan karib beliau ialah Angelina Jolie & beliau selalu juga babysit anak2 Angelina. Angelina pula slalu juga membabysit husband si princess (OOPPPPSSSS!!)

AND THEY LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER

Dialog: Syareena & Rafiee

Screen Play:

Princess Zilan - Zilan

Adi Gusti - Rafiee

Prince Gorjes - Malek

Dayang Syerena - Syareena

Hang Tuah - Ilah

Dayang Nora - Nora

p/s: yeah i like the part that i am rich in the end muahahha.

perlu ker kita berlakon begini hahhaa!

happy birthday to me!

2009-02-20T21:47:00.042+08:00

ZiLaN
Wow i'm turning to sweet 17 today! I'm young, beautiful, bodylicious, healthy and wealthy. Sipping my favourites vanila shakes, resting on lazy chair in my big mansion, listening to the musics of the oceans, watching the beauty of the island before my eyes. Having my love hot sexy Ed purrring sweet words into my ears... making me laugh. My life is perfect.. what else could i wish for?? There goes my dreams.... don't mind my words, i'm not J.K Rowling. It would be a blessed if fantasy becomes reality.

Lovely day i had today. Great wishes received from my beloved friends and family . Nice knowing there are peoples care for me. Thank you so much!

What i wish for my birthday is to get d' happiness that i always seek off.

P/S: 10 + 17 = me.

In the memories of vanilla ice cream cakes :( , i wish 4 ...

Indie Band

2009-02-18T00:14:00.009+08:00

Indie band is getting their crown , popularity and dignity in the mainstream now adays. I always fond of indie things as they make way better musics then the mainstream.. what ever it is.. Malaysian music arena is far far away to be proud off - yet. The most important thing is, we r going for the right directions. I wonder why 90's era has took us backward from the glory of P. Ramlee's music and all the rockers Wings, Search, Kamasutra etc bands in 80's.

It's been 3 years i dont go to any gigs or any entertainment occasions. The last 1 was the blast and awesome concert by Muse. Perhaps i dont have anybody to drag me to those places. He was the one who bring me to those places and i only trust him. He loves musics, a very talented song writer and singer. He tried so hard to win any bands tournaments hehe. I remembered there's few time syareena and i went by ourselfs enjoying free gigs in bukit bintang and become Ben's sort of pom pom girl. It's not pom pom, what yeh forgot the word.. oh sort of groupies la haha. Nice memories. Plus it's our time to cuci mata la kann hehee. Lot's of cute "child child fish" (anak2 ikan) hehehe .

Here are few songs that i like:

Bunk face - Situasi

Butterfingers - The Chemistry

(Damn he looks totally like ben here)

Butterfingers- Vio Pipe

(My favs instrumental)

Jason Lo

(Love this song)

P/S: i have follower? wahh hahahaa..

What i'm Doing?

2009-02-04T00:33:00.010+08:00

(Halloooo)

What i'm doing now?

It's 12.34 am 4th of February.
I'm chating with my friend from India - Avik.
Talking about types of roti we have in India and Malaysia.
It makes me hungry, want to eat Roti pisang.
Oooohhh banana bread love it.

What i'm doing just now?~ 8-12pm

Playing with my cats.
Finish up my Heroes season 3 series.
It's not so bad as some review said.
It still had the twist.
My conclusion is too many dumb ass have great powers.

What i'm doing in the evening? 2-6pm

Trying hard to concentrate on my work - tender.
Got "good"news from my collegues.
Searching for my trainings.
If my boss approve it.
He will screw my vacations.
Oh shit.

What i'm doing in morning? 8-12

Open all the applications i needed.
Check this and that.
Chat with a friend of mine from Canada -Jonathan.
Again doing the boring tender thingy.
Lunch!

Well that's sorts of what my "life flow" and what's i'm doing almost everyday.

(ERKKKKss! Gotcha!)

ESRI APUC in Singapore

2009-01-26T11:36:00.054+08:00

Sorry for the late update about my APUC in Singapore. It's been bz week for me sleeping on my free time hehhehe.

I was there for 3 days and 2 nights, staying at Marina Mandarin. The very best 5 star hotel i ever been so far. I was lucky cause there's a 50% offer during chinese new year (very opposite from here where they will double up the room price during any celebrations) so, my boss agree that we stay there, if not.. no chance la.

This hotel was situated at a very strategic area, near esplanade, Merlion, Clarke Quay, opposite to Suntec Convention city where we held our APUC, connected to Marina square mall, city hall mall n suntec mall. Geez.. Singapore has too many malls at one place and connected.

The moment i open my room door, i knew it was dejavu hahhaa. I dreamt about it b4, big room, with a small balcony. A big flat tv mounted on the wall, internet connected to tv but i didn't try it, the best area of course the toilet la :). I think i spend most of my time in the bath tub berendam tak hingat kan...

Right after cleaning myself, i went to explore Sentosa Island. Since Singapore is quite a safe place to walk alone (lot's of singaporean n tourist only, unlike Malaysia too many foreigners worker face especially from Indonesia, Bangladesh and now Vietnamese and Myanmar), i decided to go there by myself. Not so hard to go there, i walked from the hotel to City Hall MRT, go to harbour front MRT ($1.40) and go to 3rd floor Vivo city Mall to take Sentosa Express ($3).

Reached Sentosa Island around 7pm. Many tourist there, lot's of Chinese as usual. I walked along the beach, sitting for a while taking pics and relax. There are few cafe and open bar. I thought to have a drink n dinner there, unfortunately too many porks in the menu, mostly western foods n not really interesting. Unlike our restaurants and cafe at beach, we have many types of foods and the best must have menu is Ikan Bakar or any BBQ thingy huhuhu... yummy. After a while, i took tram services n went to Siloso beach about 15 min. walked. Wider beach n nicer then the first one. Saw few teenagers playing kites and volleyball. A group of girls jumping here n there taking pics hehe...

On second day, i went for the APUC conference. To my surprise the crowd was less then i thought it would be as this is the Asia Pacific User Conference. Seems like the attendants just as much as our previous roll out. The projector and screen resolution is very poor. Background pics not so interesting kind of dull to me. Overall personally i think ESRI Malaysia is way better organizing things hehehe.

The opening speech made by our big boss Boustead Leslie Wong followed by Mr Jack Dangermond the president of ESRI Inc. We all proud to see him here. I hope i'll meet him again and hope can take pics in US if my boss send me to San Diego la this july :P.

Then we went to the gallery section to see some booth n i got this very cute kangaroo doll from Dekho. The best goodies i ever get :P Then went home, had our dinner the food is sucks. Tasteless. Then i went out for a walked to the Merlion area n took the river cruise cost me only $13. Very nice cruise.

Sorry people since this is kind of old story, i'm lazy to elaborate more haha so i'll stop here. Just take a look at my photobucket k!

http://s230.photobucket.com/albums/ee62/z-LaN/Office/APUC%20Singapore%2009/?albumview=slideshow

Meet Uncle Husein

2009-01-18T23:59:00.013+08:00

Juara Lagu 2008

Yay!!! The winner goes to the most weird voice band in Malaysia "Lagu Untukmu" by Meet Uncle Hussein!

Yay!!! there goes my prediction again. I'm good at prediction Muahahaha... i know.. i know.. thank u.. thank u... muahaha.

Puas hati siot. Ramai tak nak percaya bila aku kata lagu ni best giler. Ramai tak nak sokong aku bila aku kata lagu ni akan menang. Ramai tak nak mengaku yang aku memang hebat lagi mulut masin hahahha...(saja nak riak tak tentu arah happy punya pasal)

History: The moment i listen to this song, i fell in love for the weirdness of the vocal and the voice and the catchy tune they create. I go berserk, want to jump around here n there banging my head singing it loud n crazily! I'm still waiting redbox to get this karaoke IMMEDIATELY u bitch!!!

AJL life performance: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cL2qlpE6DZA

Meditating: Predict guru will again predict the winner for the next coming Juara Lagu 2009..

P/S: This is meet uncle Husein cousin as u can hear from their similar voice hehehe. Another joy songs for my ears!

And people.. dont tell me i'm weird for i'm loving this weird songs hahaha.. they playing a good cool weird musics. i like.

Laskar Pelangi

2009-01-13T16:15:00.013+08:00

Another beautiful songs and lyrics from Nidji... guess i can say Nidji is very good n will be 1 of my favourite band hehehe, plus some of his lyrics from a few of his songs does hit/slap/punch right to my face (*ouch*)... the phrase was exactly what he said to me i wonder how Nidji can speak the same hehehhe. Damn it!

mimpi adalah kunci

untuk kita menaklukkan dunia

berlarilah tanpa lelah

sampai engkau meraihnya

laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu

bebaskan mimpimu di angkasa

warnai bintang di jiwa

menarilah dan terus tertawa

walau dunia tak seindah surga

bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa

cinta kita di dunia.....

selamanya

cinta kepada hidup

memberikan senyuman abadi

walau hidup kadang tak adil

tapi cinta lengkapi kita

laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu

jangan berhenti mewarnai

jutaan mimpi di bumi

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia.....
selamanya

laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu

Johor

2009-01-12T13:18:00.018+08:00

Over the weekend i went to JB to attend the user requirement meeting for DOSM. I stay at MSuites Hotel near Danga Bay. The hotel is very quite and kind of dead to me, no tourist... mainly the people are from group of organizations, companies or government sectors.

Fly with Firefly, taken around 7 am.

It looks like there's a kingdom surrounded by clouds, i think that's the Kingdom of Ayah Pin LoL

I stay in a 500 square feet studio room, the biggest i ever stay. It's nice, not so scary hehhee. i manage to shove all the scary thoughts an eerie imaginations before the night hahaha.

The meeting involves all the top management of Statistic Department (DOSM). I can say they r the most wise department i ever met, u know la government how they r right? :P. but this group of people, i have to salute them for knowing what they doing, what they want n how details they can be. Plus they does speak good english! So cannot main2 la with these people hehehehe.

At night, we went for bowling tournament. I totally blew up my team chance to win the first prize, sorry guys :P haven't play it for so long, i only manage to get 156 points from 2 games hahaha. One of my team member En. Wan, he won the first prize for individu with 347 points. He's very dissapointed in me and keep telling me to practice b4 we play again next time if it happens they organize it again. He still wants me to be in the team somehow hahaha. Anyway me n Kim Jon walked half way to Danga Bay b4 we went to the bowling tournament. Too bad we can't lepak at Danga Bay that nite :( it is so happening!

On Sunday, we have our presentation on the morning. It's only a half day meeting and after we check out, we walked to the Danga Bay again. Hmm.. nothing special there, many shops n cafe r close. They only open after 6 pm. I have fun playing Daytona with Kim Jon n i won :P. Then, we pick a cafe near the beach n sat there chitchating until 4.30 pm. On the way back, we discover they actually have a boat trips to the crab village and Lidor beach! What a waste, we dont know about that earlier huhu.

Since flying is boring, we spent times with photography session

Food Monster

The best photo of the night, except this stewardes walk kengkang.

Seat next to propeller makes my head dizzy. noisy la

We entering KL - PJ area, it's so nice

So, that's all for my weekend story. Since i dont have camera, i cant take any pics. All pics from Kim Jon camera... My next trip will be Singapore!!!

i missed my fluffy badly

2009-01-07T22:56:00.015+08:00

I watched Bolt movie just now, and all i can think off is my Fluffy.

Where is he?? Why must he gone?? Why all my cute manja oren cat gary & fluffy is gone??, Who kidnaped them??

He's my baby, he's my company, he's my laugh, he's my smile, he's my manja, he's my naughty playful cat, he's my fluffy. i love him so much. Why things i love will always gone??? I missed him so much...

Return my Fluffy please. :(

I was so lucky i take these vids and pics a few days b4 i lost him... WWWaaaaawaaaaaWaaaaa..

happy new year 2009!

2009-01-01T09:25:00.009+08:00

H a p p y N e w Y e a r

* * * 2 0 0 9 * * *

WoW! Another year have passed! It's so fast! We r getting older again! but r we there yet??? phewwww..... i'm not there yet! but i'm moving and do something new at least :p. Let me list out some of last year resolutions i can remember:

1. Pay all my debts - Completed
2. Island Vacations - Completed with 2 times wonderful island trips
3. Radio - Completed
4. PC - Completed
5. Redesign my room - Completed
6. Take IELTS - Not Completed
7. Apply for Scholarship - Not Completed

Ok My 2009 resolutions

1.Camera - Completed hehe got myself new Nikon S600, im quite satisfied with it except the battery heat problem and the poor video capture. Going to send for services and try ask for the new 1.
2. Hand Phone - I want e66
3. Forecast for at least RM5k profits from my online business - hope i can :P
4. Fly to Indonesia and makes business with Indonesian wholesaler
5. Take IELTS
6. Apply for Scholarship/Master degree
7. Expand my business.
8. Buy my own apartment for investment
9. Take my mom and my sis & bro to Redang.

Well, that's all i can think off right now. I had a few good and sad memories through 2008:

Good Memories

1. I had a very cute and manja orange cat - Fluffy, my most beloved cat
2. Had a terrific vacations at Perhentian and Redang.
3. Meet Jort, Jonas and Robert my Amsterdam and Sweden friends
4. Sweet memories with Robert -something i never think off i can be hehehe
5. My manager left the company
6. Very Big Bonus!!
7. Training at Singapore
8. Found a wholesaler area, start my own business and when i get the first stranger customer!

Sad Memories

1. My beloved fluffy gone
2. Gary gone, Leo died
3. When i need to pay all my debts with my big bonus and left me only 10% of it for my own entertainment.

I guess that's all about it. Pretty good year i guess, the best part for me is, i started my own businesss again hehehe. So, will i be richer by end of this year??? hahahha...

Malaysia International fireworks competition

Confused...Culture Shock!

2008-12-13T01:52:00.023+08:00

Whatttt???

That's the only words i can said + a confused look like this poor kitten here ->->->-> ->->->

when ALMOST ALL my friends married or getting married give the same comments about my new kinky stuff :

"I'm so shy! I dont want to wear it "
"Oh it's too sexy why should i wear it, i'm so shy "
"What for i wear it? I rather naked then wearing those "
"I don't need that, naked is better n enough "
"It's see through, makes me shy, i dont want to wear it"
"I don't like it, it's not my custom "

Please help me i dont understand why?? why??? I'm too culture shock here! especially from those married people who said they are too shy to wear it. I don't believe it!!! Exception for single ladies la... but still! It's confusing!

First: It's not too sexy! It's just see through, nice n nice n nice not that daring and kinky at all (for the first 3 items) ! I meant to put more DARING things in future.

Two: It meant to be sexy with those lingeries on U. It is meant to seduce your man. That's the purpose to be sexy.

Three: Why need to be shy with ur own husband?? U will naked after all!

Four: Why don't they have the idea to "spice up" a little with those sexy lingeries. Feel sexy n seductive.

Five: It can be wear on day not only at night if u think it's a waste of money wearing it for like 5 seconds maybe.

Six: Be imaginative on what u can do with those sexy lingeries on U. For your man to get the "different" hotness level.

Seven: Personally i think wearing sexy lingeries before complete naked is more hot, seductive, sexier and romantic.

Eight: Ok i have to admit it is not our custom.. so what?? beat it! it's for your lover sake! U have to put confident, want to be sexy enough to melt ur partner n crave for u every second of the day.

Nine: Most men loves their girl with those kinky sexy lingeries, makes them turn on then complete naked (from almost all my guy friends comments+blog+forums+articles+etc)

Ten: Creativity in sex life will help strengthening your sex life - lingeries is 1 of those! (like 1 article i read after she bought a sexy lingeries, since then she said "Hari Hari Mau" LOL)

Don't give me the look n say - "U r not marry!! U don't know anything!!" oh please.. yes i'm not marry n YET i understand what lingerie can makes me feel -wild, alluring, being hot n sexy and gives me confident even more. It's normal! Oh for some people only, i guess...

Weird n confused... i think it's impossible.. maybe the real reason is "It's expensive, waste of money n again what for?? well simplest say - i dont want to buy la" ---> this is more acceptable.

Kinky I like!!

2008-12-10T23:45:00.007+08:00

At last!! Me & Syareena has launched our new baby called Kinky lingerie! This is my dream comes true. I have been dreaming to have this kinky line (though i'm not designing it :P) since i was in high school. Supposing i myself wanna produced my own design.. but none of us know sewing hehehe. Perhaps in future we manage to produce our own design.. who knows.

So.. Get ready to spike the hotness level yáll...

http://kinkysweetnaughty.blogspot.com/

About nothing

2008-12-03T16:50:00.003+08:00

*yawn*

I am so sleepy... this few days has been a very slow days for me, kind of blur. My excitement learning java and focus in my works n searching for house somehow is decreasing due to the reality that i am still stuck in this company doing things i dislike + the java thing hmm... got stuck somewhere and get bored + the house thingy hmm... stuck as well with some title issues, it will take at least 4 month to settle everything before we can sell it plus we havent find the perfect new house + i missed my fluffy.

During my study years, i have a habit to wandering around shopping mall or park or just walking anywhere alone & spend my time thinking. It's something i will do normally when i'm depressed or sad or need some space to be alone. It's where i feel that i have all the freedom i want and will feel happy doing it. It makes me wondering about things past, future and presents. People or object that surronds me, and even predict what other peoples life could be by just looking at them and what they're doing. This is the time where a lot of ideas and a lot of conclusions i can find about my life, environment, world, n who we r in this world. This is the time where thousands of questions pouring my mind to find answers.

I know some thought i'm unique or weird. Not that weird is something disgusting or eerie or bad as some people thought. Not for me,i like it when people say im weird or different, it's a compliment to me. I like being different from usual. i like being among the weirds or minority rather then being among the "usual & normal" cause it makes me feel boring. For me it's something precious being different & unique from others. I just like it.

Maybe it's 1 of the reasons why i like unique, rare and different guy, or anythings. Not that i want the "mole people" hehehe. Different & unique not really in terms of physical but in terms of characteristics. Unique characteristics will attract me easily. Makes me wanna search and learn more about him. Makes me wanna have him. Makes me fall for him. What unique is? well i can't describe it, i knew when i see it.

I can seat at the bus stop at section 2 near my university for 2 hours or more while listening to my MP3. Not that i'm waiting for someone or bus. I just wanna seat there n looking at people around me while do my 'free thinking'. Then i will walk to the park and to the shopping mall and stop in bookshop n treat myself with free reading :P. I will buy McD ice cream and walk back to where i came from, took the bus and go back to sleep.

I remembered when i was in Perlis. I was kind of culture shock to c a lot of innocents,nice and well can say narrow people too where i thought it's never exists anymore hehehe. The funniest part is when i was wondering around alone, a lot of the girls asked me "aint u afraid?", "why u walk alone?don't u feel shame?", "I'm pity of u". what the hell, it's only in campus!? hahaha.. jeez.. it's something totally weird for them i guess. But in the end there's a few of them seek my advice on how to be me. LoL. It's funny.

*sigh*

I missed those days. Since i have car i seldom walk and take bus anymore. Plus it's not really relevant to walk near my house cause there's nothing interesting to look at and to wondering about. Plus a lot of immigrants around here n well pretty scary to walk alone. I dont know why but almost everytime i walk alone there will always scary strangers trying to disturb me. Even school kids at sec 2 hahaha. Not to mentioned a few 'tragedy' happened that i kept only to myself. If my mom knows hehe she will go berserk. I'm cool. :p

Well talking about strangers n weird things hehehe.. syareena and i have a few experiances during our schooldays. Both of us can act "cool" enough until the "predator" feel weird n ignore us LoL. But the scariest one is when i'm with Nora. Maybe she still remember it. We r walking to her house. Her house is pretty quite area. Then when we were walking. There's a chineese guy with big birth mark on his face (i guess), wearing yellow trenchcoat following us and he kept whispering scarily to himself. When we stoped he stoped, when we walked he walked. We was walking very fast until i saw a big wood. I pick up and look at him. He stopped and he dissapeared. hahahha.. lucky us.

Oh ya.. the last psycho, again yellow trenchcoat last year(i thinkla), but this time with syareena. we was walking behind giant kecik. Around 5 pm and that place was not so quiet, there's people walking by. This old uncle on his motorbike with yellow trenchcoat(it's like a standard outfit for psychos) he passes us n drive slowly while cursing all fucked and sex terms n told his penis size crazily to us. It's hard to explain either he sounds angry or what i dont know. But deffinitely not horny but he did scare us. Then again he return to us yelling @*&*$##^*&^*@##@ to us. I became so angry and i yell %$%#@$$%%#&T^^% back to him hahaha. Then he drove off since we arrived near restaurant. That was the most fucked up psycho i ever met which makes me angry!! auto responses hehhe.

Hmm.. i have no purpose actually, just wanted to write something...

My scammers memories

2008-11-27T23:43:00.021+08:00

I'm pretty bz this week doing things that perhaps will unleash my real inner business capabilities hahaha (as if). I've long stop making money with my own business since high school. What a waste, i don't know why i stop it when i went to University...

I did remember when i was in primary school, my best friend n my best business buddy, Jasmin. Both of us love money and we love selling anything that can bring profits to us. We have kind of good business. U know, kids those days love to waste money for unreasonable thing n both of us have the supply of unreasonable thing.

That makes our business so good. :P That's 1 of main tips u can use in business "customers loves unreasonable, money wasted, unvaluable, cheap, shiny, cute, and again cheap thing". This kind of people really don't care to waste their money to people like me hehehe.

The most unreasonable thing to buy those days is : a cute small butterflies in a box. Who ever start the idea is realy the best scammers. So what the products is actually:

source : after school, go to field and catch as many small tiny butterflies.

packaging: a square box with nice painted design and ribbons etc. Poke a few holes on top of the box. Cut 1 face of the box and paste a transparents plastics so u can view the butterflies.

victims: stupids kids who bought the products from Rm2 -Rm5. The butterfly will died in 2 days at least.

P/S: So, better check ur kids not to be the victims of scammers in school.

At least i'm not that horrible scammers :). Some of our products are : beautiful + nice + uniques + cheap eraser, stickers, stamps, notes, pens, gold dust, purse, bracelet, what ever kids wanted to buy. We will find a source n sell it. It's pretty impressive cause i can get at least rm40 profits every months! as far as i rememberlah. Not bad for primary school kids la hehehe.

Then when i start to know a penpal service, i start selling penpals but this time i dont take cash profits. In return i can get penpals for free :). What i did was, find 10 peoples who wants to buy a penpal and i'll get 2 free penpals. Guess what?? it's a niche business in my high school a lot of peoples actually wanna have their own penpals. I should have taken cash instead of penpal, i'm sure i can get hundreds of ringgit. :P

I did sell a few other things in my early highscool days untill my best business buddy transfered. I stop selling anything. The last thing i did was rent story books that i borrowed from a bookstore to my friends. So i dont need to pay for the rental and yet with a cheap rental for my friends i did get a lot of profits out of it. :p

I think that was the last small simple money making i made in school. I love business. I love having my own money on my own efforts. Well i just about to grab new opportunities so soon! No more wasting times. I wanna do what i have long stopped!! Yippie!! But offcourse with a new business buddy. I'll let u guys know when it happens k!

Jasmin & I on her engagement day

De'beads Collections

2008-11-18T10:48:00.010+08:00

This is another blog about beadings i created for my sister in support of her beading business + for me to get some extra money. I'm working on it and i'm trying nuffnang as the advertisers :P

So please boys and girls don't hesitate to click on this blog ok! though u don't like beadings u can share n show it to ur friends, family, collegues, enemies whom ever u can la...

I know i sound desperate but well hope it's worth it hahahha! Marketing is important :)

So any of u have any good suggestion how i can find more customers?? Ur advice is most welcome!

System.output.println( "Neo Mind Activate!" )

2008-11-13T22:41:00.013+08:00

Eeerrrrrrrr....

My brain is being actively active suddenly. As usual thinking about money haha n how to get more money hahhaa. I know i have lots of ideas but never was implement, cause some r ridiculous n some r too nonsense, above all, all needs hardwork n focus n determination which i'm lack off.. i know i'm lazy bum.

Impressively! Unexpectedly! Surprisingly! I start learning Java since last friday n now im in chapter 3! This is my first time being focus since my Uni time. There must be some shot wire in my head hehe. We'll see how long i can focus on Java. :P

Another headache is the house thingy.. i had a buyer today who interested to buy my house n hoping i will cut RM40k from the price i put, definitely i wont agree on that cause i want to buy a RM270k house. So whatever it is we need to sell it around that price la. If we succeed .... *sigh*

I guess this what's inside my head now n forever heheheh;

It's never enough

2008-11-10T23:47:00.026+08:00

That's why i'm getting fat

It will never be enough... Do u believe it? believe it. It's totally true and i can't lie about it. I am not so satisfied of what i have especially the job, the salary n the life i have now. Though it's not that bad neither it's so good... i felt totally depressed n dissapointed cause i can't buy the house i want!!! I want that Alam budiman house for myself or that huge parkland house. :(

Will rm4k be enough? i dont think so.... will rm8k be enough? i dont think so cause by that time i surely wanna buy a big bungalow! So, how to feel enough? Not that i'm not thankful, i am. It's just that "if" i have this n that..."if" i can buy this n that... it's all about the IF words. Agree? or not agree?

*sigh*

Somebody told me "can u please not complaining for once?". It's not wrong to complain as long as it's not over the limit, but to some people talking is consider complaining. Amazing isn't it? I need to complain or maybe talking cause i need to let things off my head n my heart or else i feel down n depressed again, though i will be depressed but it won't be that bad la. Somehow, i enjoy sharing it with the person who dont like to hear people complaining. I feel happy just talking to this person.

Anyway back to the house thingy, i need a gurentor or second name for me to get the loan. Guess what?? i think i need a husband now to buy that house!! LoL... :p
To find a guy that i like is a total mess! Why can't i find a guy that i will like for at least more then a few months n who will likes me back? It's a hard thing...

So... i need to wait for a few more years to buy my own big house. Better if can get scholarship - master - and a better job with better salary. Perhaps the best thing i wish can happen to me is i can get my business on the move n becomes millionaires!! Muahahhaa...

*i wish

Moral of Penang story

2008-11-03T21:51:00.000+08:00

I'm back n without much excitement from Penang that i can share here... I can say it's a plain trip, nothing is memorable there except that we have fun hang out on the beach n i build stones scuplture! i can susun 3 stones only la... it's not that easy too la... still i'm proud i can do it la. I tried with big stones too n successful! Look at the creation of zilan's stones sculpture below, though not as good as this Bill Dan guy - he's a proffesional, who travel around the world n earn his living just by balancing stones. Some people... their life sounds so easy right? WHY?!?! :p

Well in short what we did in Penang are :

First day: check in -> lunch at town -> hang out at swimming pool -> beach -> sculpture-> watch my collegue fishing -> dinner at the ship (dissapointed -it's expensive, nothing special infact we can eat it here in KL actually. we should just venture around the Feringghi to find place to eat, i saw a lot more interesting restaurant with a nice ambiance along the road)-> wondering along the Feringghi road n i bought radiohead album->sleep.

Second day: woke up-> take a walk alone at the beach-> breakfast-> shower-> check out-> wondering around town buy blouse n foods-> Bukit bendera-> go home.

Can u believe it? we barely go anywhere in Penang! That's why i said it's too plain n boring. We should go to Gurney drive for dinner where they have alot of stalls +sea view + sea breeze + sunset, i totally forgotten about it. Well, we should do homework b4 we go. Though it's not really a big deal since i went to most of the places already :p, but still it's so nothing huhu.

http://www.penang.ws/penang-attractions/placevisit.htm

The Tanjung Bungah hotel is a no no place to go again. The beach isn't beutiful, the water looks dirty n i dare not swimming in there. We can't wear t-shirt in swimming pool, WTF! The workers not friendly, a lot of big groups organization having conference or party or family days there. Well, i think i prefer chalet around Feringghi or Teluk Bahang area, more tourists, lively and beautiful. I learned my lesson :p.

Being there makes me missed Langkawi Island and beautiful islands of Redang n Perhentian and of course my friends Syareena n Rafiee, we have more fun venturing in Terengganu, exploring a lot of places without any map n simply trust a 'buss driver' n Alister n having a nice dinner with them hehehee. We should do that again, offcourse at other place!! I'm looking forward for Sabah lah besides Perhentian Kecil. So Rafiee please stop thinking about marriage n better save ur money for our next trip as we planned. Dont say we don't tell u ok! No excuses :p

Pics : will be uploaded soon!

Go away ghost of clock... musics of wave is waiting for me now.

2008-10-31T22:52:00.000+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen, i would like to announce here that eventually my doomsday is my finest day of presentation ever. It's smooth n so natural. Surprisingly I done it without feeling nervous n trembling n sweating... instead i feel excited and happy with the presentation. Hehehe.. weird but fun!

Now... the sounds of wave is just a few miles away!! I'm going for a short 2 days trip to penang... yippie! another vacation for me this year... perhaps the last one :P

I'll be back with more stories!!

Time is Ticking!!!

2008-10-29T12:31:00.001+08:00

Time is ticking,
i've been sleeping,
need some aspirin,
need more aspirin!

Time is chasing me,
nervous is within me,
i need some indome,
to feed stomach of me.

Time is passing by,
what a lullaby,
i should instead go n buy,
burger from that Bai!

half more days before the doomsday,
I'm still babling on this mid day,
useless to say,
i need a burger today!

This poem is the results,
of the activations of my nervous system,
it's tickling, mingling, diggling, n ling ling,
releasing gasses,
creating butterflies
flyings happily in the trapped of gasses,
up n down making me restless,
what if i release big gigantic gasses,
on the stage n being heard by 170 peoples???

Oh no... no.. no!!
It wont happen cause the microphone is on the desk,
perhaps i can make a loud "Achooo",
to cover the gasses bombastic explosions,
Thus the history is covered,
But people next to me will fainted.

Oh shit, my burger!
i need it now! it's 1 pm, i need it now!

Oh shit, i wasted my precious time,
with this unwise poems,
30 minutes is wasted,
i am doomed!

My dearest Burger
i'm coming to the rescue......!
n thus.... this ghosts of clocks is everywhere looking at me...

Arrrrrgggghhhhhhhh!

Hair wired

2008-10-27T11:09:00.000+08:00

Want to know how i feel now??? this is how i feel:

HAIR WIRED

Uhuks..

2 more days to go for the damned Roll out! WHY! WHY! WHY! why i'm still working in this company when everything that i hate to do-training, demo, presentation-are my main job here!

Uhuks..
170 people has confirmed to come, which means i have to present in front of 170 people. Shit, even though i have done many demos (not so many actually), still a lot of butterflies not only in my stomach but all over my body ... uhuks.

SCARED!

Raya + Demo + Work Load + .......

2008-10-22T18:37:00.000+08:00

*sigh*
tired just got back from office.

*sigh*
what i wanna write?...

*sigh*
K.. i tried to write something about raya b4 but don't have any idea what to write and not available almost everyday. It's been kind of empty raya.. not as i expected due to the kenduri at Perak. It's such a waste of time cause we can't go beraya to alot of houses like we always did. Only 2 house we visited!! :(

First day : My collegues came and even my big boss daniel came with his son! He seems enjoy eating all the food hehe. Meet nurul friends from China - Jack. He eats a lot! i enjoy seeing him eating afterall.

Perak: 3D 2N at K.Mas house. I dont help much as usual, It's only us, her siblings and her auntie stayed there for 2 night. The rest of her family came after the wedding, jeez.. we r so nice that we stay there for 2 night!! We went to Hot spring park again - not so enjoying, the hot spring is too hot. I stay in for 15 mnts and already felt nausea and wanna faint. All of us cannot tahan with the heat n we go out from that park after 1 hour!!! what a waste of money :(

Open House: i don't expect a lot of people to come at first cause it's only the second week of raya. Somehow, my house was full of people sampai tak muat rumah from noon till night! Very the meriah and fun hehe.. food is just enough. Thanx to Nora for her very delecious spaghetti .

Raya with friends: For the first time we go to Syareena's house beraya...this is d first time i ate her cooked hehehe.. i give 3 out of 5 for her salty spaghetti haha.. but well 5/5 for her effort. :P . malek bring brownies- he claimed he made it but it's acually bought from her aunt, delicious and Nora's kuih i tak sempat makan huhuhu. We spent time watched a maniac stuntmant movie - death proof. At the end of the day we took a family potrait pics hehehe..

Now: I have Roll out demo to prepare!!!! DOSM URS Report to prepare!! Argghhh.....

*sigh*
Cant wait to go to Penang next weekend!!

P/S : I'm already bored with my "ïntended victim"... the subject has proven damn boring. I need a new toy that is more interesting. Well maybe can caught a mat saleh in Penang hehe.. who knows :P

Open House pics: http://s230.photobucket.com/albums/ee62/z-LaN/Friends/Open%20House%202008/

R.I.P Leo

2008-10-18T10:36:00.000+08:00

Leo,i'm sorry if i treat u bad or i didn't take a good care of u. Not much i can do to help u healed, I tried my best... I'm gonna missed u so much. I love u Leo.

Selamat Hari Raya!

2008-09-29T21:35:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!!! Well, i don't think i ever felt so excited about raya since im in high school! i feel so fun fun fun. I wanna eat rendang, lemang, nasi impit n pineaple tarts - my favourites. Perhaps what makes me more excited then before is because I have a new purple room, a nice black n white baju raya, new mascara, new foundation, new brooch and a new fury aka bulu bulu hand beg (mcm bdk kecik dpt benda br) and of course.. a long holidays, from tuesday to next wednesday.

This year will be a bit different, as we going to Perak n stay at my sis in law's house for 2 nights, which i don't like it at all, i had too, though it's nice to go to the hot spring park, i just don't like to stay at other people's house. Feel uncomfortable. What çhoice i have, im the only driver here. :(

Good news is we're going to have an open house on 12/10. Menu hven't decide yet but the best part is, maybe we will served satay on that day... it has been years we don't have satay for open house. So people who was invited, do come to my house! So again Selamat Hari Raya n Maaf Zahir Batin!

I need a Rest!

2008-08-28T21:16:00.000+08:00

Ahh.. stretching my body for 30 times and yet i can't stop from chating, surfing and downloading musics using my new broadband. At last i manage to subscribe it :p. It seems there are people actually waiting for my story hahaha.. well maybe she's the only person also. Very well then.. since im so tired n need to sleep, i will list down what had happened since my las post :-

1.TNB tender done and using my pleasure time to relax as much as i can in the office.

2.Got my big bonus and spend it for brand new desktop and clear my credit cards.It's a big sum of money and yet i can't manage to do any shopping :(. Well at least i clear all my credit cards!!!

3.Treat my friends at Bagan Lalang. It's a good short trip!! we enjoy it so much, playing bubbles and making spastic videos on the beach. fun fun fun. basically rafiee is the only spastic one hahha.. :p

4.I lost my precious necklace :(

5.Birthday bash for Rafiee at Redbox. It's crazily fun, we laugh, dance and sing all nite using accesories from Rafiee -Boa, wigs, crown and wands too.

6. Paint my room to purple and moved my PC to my room. So from now on i have more time to update this blog and do more stuff!!

7.Good news, my manager has resigned!! yippie. but it's kind of sad too cause he's a good n very nice manager.'Even though he is irritating when it comes to work, but i can say it's hard to find a nice manager like him. I hope the new manager we'll be a nice person too.Last but not least,

8.Finally, something i've waited for sooo looong.. i got the opportunity to handle a project from scratch!!! Hope it will give me so much fun and experienced. I need it badly. :p

With all that has happened, i'm in a good mood now with a new spirit. It's been a good month for me :). Sorry times up, i need to rest now!! Nite everybody!

Stupidity in my workplace

2008-07-11T13:33:00.000+08:00

Why la weh we have 1 stupidos, lazy, emotional, unprofessional team member in my company??? He's keep talking about "team work", professinalism but yet, he's the only 1 who doesnt have all that criterias. Why??? because :

1.He'll give 1001s of excuses not to do any write up (maybe he's allergic to keyboard) even though its only 2-3 sentences!!!

2.He'll give MOST of his works to he's "team member" in his own definition of "team work" he always talked about. (in fact i dont see he's doing anything except talking)

3.He'll like to waste everyones time:

a.call everyone for useless discussions (mainly to make him understand what is going on in the office which will take almost 1 hour to make him understand simple damn thing!!!) even though we just had the meeting yesterday. Amazingly he's the only 1 who dont understand - that's where "the eye, the hand, the ear" is needed for him. DUHH!

b.He talks about non-related topic at least for 20mnts. He likes to bable nonsense thing.

c.He call us to make a simple changes for him ex: copy paste from available documents in power point = approximately 3-5 power point. which he himself can do it!! This is the most irritating part.

d.He loves to do his work with someone, meaning = instead of do the writing himself which he is more familiar with, he loves to sit next to someone and 'discuss' and asked that person to write for him. Rather then he do it all by himself.WTF??

4.He dont understand that he's the only person who's everybody dont fond to work with cause he is not a person of "TEAM WORK"!

5.He gives more excuses to his boss more than us do.

6.He loves to talk "loud" to his boss cause he is too emotional and as always doesnt understand what's the topic is.

7.He thinks he's always correct and will try very hard to give excuses cause he dont want to accept his fault without turning his face to red (get angry).

The conclusions = he is not profesional but childish. He dont have team work but laziness, uncontrolable, stubborn, and he loves to psycho people about "TEAM WORK & PROFESSIONALISM" DUUUHHHHHH!!

In fact everybody except him in this office is MORE professional and have the team work spirits. Even AUS manager can do more than 200 pgs of write up without complaining and excuses!! That's what manager is paid to do for!

Doesnt he knows that he's the only problem here???
WTF??

a Week Of enjoyment

2008-07-03T20:57:00.000+08:00

Last week was the week of enjoyment for me! I have so much fun going to Singapore and then straight to Redang Island. I went to Singapore for the ArcLogistic training. Kind of scary at first cause its my first time going abroad and i'm all alone.

I have no problem getting to Singapore -thank God-, their taxi is so expensive, the halal food is so hard to find, not many Malays can be seen, so safe, so clean, the road is wide, taxi so canggih, MRT ticket also canggih, people is friendly, barang is so murah (dont kira the xchange ratela), not as busy as KL, overall Singapore is good. :P

My training is fine, a few of ESRI distributor joined the training - Australia, Singapore, Japan, China, Sri Lanka and Thailand. All of them r already expert in logistic, far more advance then ESRI Malaysia n Singapore, kind of malu also hehehe.. they all into development unlike ESRI Malaysia. The training makes me want to open my own company,to develop as well as sell the logistic software n services in Malaysia hahaha.

I sempat visited a few places in Singapore - The Merlion area, Esplanade, Singapore riverside, Orchard Road and China Town. It's really fun, but not much different from KL though.

On the last day in Singapore, was kind of kelam kabut for me cause i'm out of schedule to reach Johor on time. I end up with a very long que at the bus stop, waiting almost 1 hour to get a bus to JB. Reach the check point at 8.30pm and stupidly i just follow people and i end up crossed the 'Tambak Johor' hahaha... i'm so clumsy, but well what the hell, i dont want to miss the JB bus!! I took taxi sapu n went to Larkin which is 15 mnts far for RM20! Phewww... at least i arrived on time :D.

Then my journey to Redang island started!!

I met Syareena n Rafiee at the bus station, Redang Holiday van already there waiting for us. We reached Kuala Merang jetty after 30 mnts of driving and another 45 mnts to redang Island. The beach is so beautiful! the weather is extremely hot, not many tourist as before but still i can see chineese everywhere. We headed to our Chalet and they serve us with welcome drinks :P.

The chalet is just ok, no wardrobe & no mirror in the room except in toilet. The rest is just ok :P. Without wasting our time, we changed cloths and jumped into the sea :D. It's heaven, the water is so crystal clear, blue, white sandy beach!! We went for snorkeling at Pulau Lima in the afternoon.

After snorkeling - tea break - bath - dinner , we went to the other side of the beach. It's more happening there, Redang Beach Resort having a birthday party and they prepare a fireworks for her. So we just sit there enjoying the fireworks and the music while chit chat. We really have so much fun! Then we lay down on the beach, watching stars and shooting stars, this is the first time i saw a shooting stars.. it's beautiful. We just talk until 3 am in the morning.

The next day, i woke up early as usual, me n rafiee went for breakfast n the Kuey teow is so delicious! Syareena slept untill 12pm! Only me and Rafiee swimming on the beach, walking n took pics, lepak at Redang bay resorts and sleeping on the swing... The best part is, i saw a shark near the beach!! it's just a baby sharks.

We went back to the Resorts for lunch and take bath and again, walking along the beach for photography session hehehe..we r camera freak hahaha. The wheather is so xtremely hot n that's why we r so black now :p. We went for another snorkeling session at Kalong area, not much fish, but i saw a new fish - like todak kind of fish , its a trumpet fish.

After the tea break, we went snorkeling at the shark point infront of Redang lagoon chalet n there we saw 3-4 sharks! a big 1. More colourful fishes too. Then we just lay down on the beach having fun chitchating as usual.

The boring part is, its raining at night - not a heavy rain though just renyai2 :( i wanna lepak at Redang Coral for drinks and listening to the musics but somehow Syareena n Rafiee r soooooo scared to walk anywhere with that kind of weather!!! I'm kind of pissed off :P.. so, Rafiee end up wearing a mask n sleep, Syareena and i lepak at the Redang Bar, but its really lousy bar cause they dont have English songs karaoke at all!!! so i had to go back to the room and thank god, our neighbour - Alister a spanish guy was lepaking outside his room. So Syareena n i end up talking with Alister and abang Joe the snorkeling guide until 2.10 am. At least, my night not really wasted. Alister, he's really a funny guy and he told us a lot about spain, he's risk adventures n he's 4 months journey in Asia. I wish i can do that too. :(

So, our final day at Redang, had a nice breakfast, yeah i think RM397 for food,accomodation,snorkeling+equipment, transport from Jetty to bus station n the boat its so worth it!!! Bus from JB - Terengganu n Terengganu - KL is just RM63.90. So we spent less than RM500 for this spectacular holiday. Awesome!

While waiting for our 9.30pm bus, we went to the Crystal Mosque, and went to the Tamadun Islam Park where they build the replicas of historic n wellknown mosque in the world. It's a brilliant idea!! Now many of us did appreciate or know the existence of those mosque, so with this park it can create awareness about Islam's empire too.

At night we went to Floating Mosque and had dinner at Ibai. That's the end of our awesome vacation!!! I really wanna do a yearly trip to Redang hehehe.. Rm500 is sooo worth! I missed Redang :( and missed my little squirel too :p

Singapore Pics = http://s230.photobucket.com/albums/ee62/z-LaN/My%20Vacations/Singapore/

Redang Pics = http://s230.photobucket.com/albums/ee62/z-LaN/My%20Vacations/Redang%20Island%202008/

thinking about nothing

2008-06-15T01:46:00.000+08:00

Thinking about nothing is the hardest thing to do.. how can we not think about anything at all? especially for me.. thinking about many things at 1 time is normal to me. Histories, memories, life, family, friends, future, problems... all at 1 time. Lately, histories has faded and memories is blossom. Memories, its so sweet to remember but how can i cope with it any longer? It is a question, how can i cope with it?

There's 2 thing i like to think of right now.. but still its just a dreams of dream. Both makes me happy in their own way :)

David Cook won!

2008-05-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

he's sooo my taste hehe..

Hahhaa.. it was victory for my David Cook!! I'm so happy!! hehe.. yeah he deserved to win. Even though his final night is just ok to me.. but he's a terrific performer! My most favourite songs by David Cook :- Billy Jane!

Mundus is what i aim for now!

2008-05-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

Ok.. i know people had enough of me talking n comparing Ben with all guys.. but sorry i just can't put him aside easily since he was part of my life before.. it's like natural for me to compare with him cause he has what i want in a guy, and he is so 'embedded' in my brain n my heart. I'll try not too.. i will, in the future cause i dont think he has any place in my heart anymore. He's dead to me. I won't forgive him n wont accept him back if it happens he returned. I had enough of him. Its just full of pain. No more nice girl. Ok.. i guess from now on i'll dropped he's name (at least in my blog haha. :P)

By the way, today me n Poh Choo had a small talk with our new staff Kim Jon. We interviewed him about Canada and ask about any opportunities for us to work or study there. I'm surprised that it's quite easy to study or work in Canada (in GIS field) according to Kim Jon. He said, there's a few way we can do - find a job, apply for immigrants or find a place to study and u can apply tonnes of scholarships from them. In order to get the 'local' fees (cheap fees), i can apply to be immigrants there. I tried the immigrants test, yes i easily can get high points -63 and the minimum passing points is 67. If i can get a job or a place to study there i added another 10 points! The only problem is i have to find CAN 10K! Well i dont plan for that, i need scholarship more!

It's good to know about it. I've been thinking about this lately and i think it's time for me to move on now... plus i already had the min 2 years working experiance to apply for any shcolarships :D. I don't kow how high the possibilities to get those scholarships, but i can try to apply first. At least i wanna do somethings which i want to do for so long - to get out from Malaysia, study and stay in other countries for a while!! It's my childhood dreams huhuhu.

Besides Canada, i found 1 very interesting scholarship -Mundus Scholarship. This scholarship is open to the developed or 3rd world countries student to study in Europe. Master programmes to be completed in 2 or more countries in Europe as they made a joint venture between Universities to do research n projects. That what makes it so tempting for me!! This is what i aim for http://www.gem-msc.org/content/modules/ hehehe.. I can stay in UK, Sweden, Polland n Netherlands if i get this scholar!! I'm looking forward for it. So, i guess i need to start thinking about the topic i should propose... this is the hardest part uhuks.

Yeah.. i think i'll go for this - searching for scholarship. Wish me luck guys!

Simple Thing Where Have u Gone??

2008-05-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

I'm addicted to this blog lately.. i know i promissed myself to make this blog as normal as i can, but for the time being i am emotionally unstabled, so i'm trying to put in words what i have in my heart n my mind right now - heartbroken, confused, sorrow, unstable, weak, unsatisfied, unambitious, unsuccessful, i'm not doing what i wanna do, im not doing things that i like, i feel my life now is just for the sake of 'surviving'..... yeah i feel empty n lost, that's the right words.

Maybe I am lonely... i always feel lonely since i was small - there's part of me that r not fulfilled, all my life, i learned to ignore what i really want as i wont be able to have things the way i want. I guess i'm already an expert in this. But seriously days after days, im getting bored n bored n i feel like i wanna blow away n ignore what i have to do & choose to do things i long to do. The problem is, i forget what i want....i forget how to do it....I forget myself.... I dont know what i should do. I'm getting stupid n stupider, my brain getting weak n weaker, my heart getting hard n harden. Arrgghhh!!!!

Once a person told me, that i knew myself too much, and for that reason i am what i am, that makes me unique, i'm in charge of who i wanna be, but the truth is.... that person is the reason i am ignoring my life now....when will it end????

'Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin'
'And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?'
Somewhere only we know?'

Oh It's really a Shit!

2008-05-19T09:43:00.000+08:00

It's the "bad" feeling again.... i shouldn't play the games in the first place cause i never knew that it's actually can becomes so real for me. Yesterday i feel hurt and frustrated for i couldn't get what i want due to typical reason as i always face. It's really fucked up and sucks. I'm pretty sure it's due to my words that he came to his senses which i'm sure that's the main reasons he think it wouldn't work. Well, i know it wont work too but somehow i do feel so frustrated, sad n painful... i dont know why. Reality check, it's always that way... and i really hate or maybe i'm scared of this "like" feeling which i have yet to feel since 2 years ago, cause i don't want to trust anybody yet due to the horrible heart broken i had before. Love, relationship and marriage is a scary thing for me now.

The weird thing is, it's so damn easy for me to accept who he was, its so damn easy for me to like him cause he has the attitude and style n personality that i want n i fond off. I can't say why honestly. He seems lovely n i have the urge to want him more.Which i think its only happened once in a million time. If only i didn't say too much heheh, i can still go with the flow and see what will happens hehhe. It sounds stupid, but that's what i felt n yeah i felt stupid though hahaha. The only guy who can make me feel like that was that bastard Ben. Am i cursed? hahaha.. I never have any luck with any guys that i want besides him. Why is that? Everytime i have new growing relationship, Ben will always disturbed and in the end its seems that only him that can have my love. He always come out of nowhere. Even though now, physically he dont appear in front of me anymore... he still appear in my head. Any guy that can make me forget him, is the guy who win me. But i doubt anyone could. It's bad to say that i feel like im with Ben sometimes when i was with Robbo, when we walk, when we holding hands, when we laugh and teasing each other, when we .... Oh gosh he's so manja n cute. Its really sucks to think of that! uhuks im so frustrated.

Well, i did told him i seriously like him.. and that's just fine to me cause i aready told what i really2 feel and yes i felt relief. Too bad he dont live here....

I Love U David Cook!!

2008-05-16T10:56:00.000+08:00

American Idol is coming to the end, anyone who can votes, please vote for David Cook!! he deserves to win!! Sexy voice, talented, original, hot hot n sooo cute hahha. Ditch David Archulatte!! he looks too poyo la n he can't sing - boring..

'Romance' in Perhentian Island

2008-05-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

I was having a fantastic time at Perhentian Island last weekend! I longed for that kind of vacation and i’m glad i joned my collegues to the island. It’s a great experienced and ‘romance’... hehhehe. My skin are more dark now but i think its worth it, “huisiow”(Swedish word) la heheh.

So, my journey begins on Saturday 10th of may. Since i’m the last minutes kind of girl, i start packing my things at 12 am and went to sleep at 2 am. 2 hours later, i woke up with a terrible pain in both of my legs due to the 10 hours non-stop walking at BB and Petaling street area the day before. Teik Mun and Poh Choo arrived at my house around 5.30 am and Poh Choo mom took us to Subang airport. Not many people in the airport, very silent environment. I had to walk n drag my right foot like a limb and retarded girl. I don’t give a damn cause what ever happens i must reach Perhentian Island! hehee..

We took the 'firefly' plane, small, with big propeller.. it's pretty scary to ride but, the interior is bigger then airasia flight. It's cool though. We arrived at Kota Bharu airport around 8 am, grab a taxi and drove off to Kuala Besut Jetty. That's the first time i step my foot in Kelantan. Hmm.. the Kota Bharu area are not so developped, but i really like the houses design. Very creative and beautiful for me. It took almost 1 1/2 hour to jetty, took the speed boat and arrive around 45 minutes later at Perhentian Island.

On the way to the Arwana jetty, i can see the corals and fishes swimming happily beneath us, it's so crystal clear.... so beautiful! i wish i knew how to swim n do free diving :p. I'm planning to take swimming class this month hahha, so that i can swim at Redang next month. Back to the perhentian stories, we check into our small chalet - Bayu dive lodge-, i like the bathroom and the sink hehhe. We dump our stuff and go for a walk at the beach, some r trying to play kite and i just sit on the swing and took pics. We had our lunch at the b'fast bar next to our chalet. The food is tasty, big portion and cheap!!!! The owner of the b'fast bar is pretty cool. He had a long beard, and then he only wore "kain" hehe. So simple.

Around 1 o'clock, we go for our first snorkeling trip to Perhentian kecil area. I was pretty frustrated cause of my sick feet and my "leaking" came on that day!! but i dont give a damn just jump into the water and pray that shark wont chase me cause i taste blood haha. Well, well snorkeling is pretty scary for non swimmer like me!! I just grab Poh Choo and hold to her hand almost all the time hehe. Not used to the flippers and the mask and the snorkeling equipment. Its pretty disgusting to breath using the snorkling things and yeah its hard!

There we goes, i can see corals and colourful fishes down us.. Its like 3-5 meters deep i guess. I tried to touch the fishes but i can't, they just swim along us, and look at us with weird looks or maybe they begging for food haha (its just my imagination), we can't feed them but i saw a few other boat feed them with bread. The snorkling guide - ridhwan, caught a baby nemo it was so tiny, like 1 cm long. Ridhwan is very sporting guy and nice snorkling guide. After 1/2 hour i feel so tired of breathing hard using mouth. Spinning a bit. Then all of us move on to our next location to c turtle eating!

Jump again in the water, there's so many people at the turtle area. A lot of floating people hehe. I saw 1 big turtle eating but too bad the visibility is too poor and its really hot! We can barely see anything under. Then,we swim to different area and saw a smaller turtle, ridhwan dive and took the turtle up! I saw its face and manage to touch the shell before the turlte ran away. huhuhu.. but its so fun hahha. And spinning. ergghh i feel like vomitting. Then we went up. I saw everybody was flat, seasick n 1 vomit too eewww.. Then we went to our last diving spot- d'lagoon area. Only me n Poh Choo jumped in the water n this is my most favourite spot!! More colourfull corals n more big fish!!!. too bad i cant took the pics... uhuks.

We arrived at the island around 6pm, i took a bath and then we went for dinner at the Fauna chalet. Expensive n not so sedap too. But overall its ok to me. A few people over there look at me with weird look and ask me "r u malay?". I laugh and said "i have this dark skin offcourse im malay", then they told all their friends hahha. its really funny. It's pretty awkward though cause all my friends talk chineese all the time, so i jusst wait for my food and interupt them a few times and waiting any news from my swedish friends. Its raining that nite, so cold... after we had dinner, to my surprise all of them went to sleep!!! I was so frustrated, cause its only 9 pm and they want to go to sleep?? huhuhu..

Luckily around 10 pm i finally met my lost swedish friend and we lepaking at the Bayu Lodge open bar. Hehehe.. thank God i met them if not i'll be bored to death! We just talking and 1 of the bayu divers - EJ who looks like "The Rock" joined us. He speaks swedish a bit.. pretty hard to talk with Jonas n Robbo since they don't speak english fluently, but im having fun!!

On the second day, my legs less sore but still its painful to walk, i can't really sleep that nite, woke up almost every hour, then at 6 am i go to bath and then went out for a morning walk. The water was sooo surut, met EJ and we have a small chit chat about Perhentian Island, the history, the weather, the peoples, the village and yadayadayada... Interesting facts hehe and its spooky at certain place, im so lucky i didnt see any weird or spooky thing in my chalet last nite.

Then, Jonas and Robbo arrived, they check in to Bayu Lodge as well and joined us to hoping Island snorkeling! It took almost 2 hours with the fisherman kind of boat to Redang Island. It was so hot, we just lay down in the front boat, chit chat. I talk with another diver named Romains. Coincidently he was taking Master in GIS and working as the research assistance at Singapore. He was a switzerland guy. Taking leaves for 4 months and go for diving around south east asia!! Ohhh i wish i can do that! damnn... when can i do that??? I'm started to hate my life n the boring job in KL at this point hehhee. I wish i can said like Azam the dive master guy, "I love my job" everytime he completed he's dives huhuhu. " I hate my Job ok!" :(.

It's really a long journey, Jonas had a hang over, he dont even budge from his spot until we arrived at Redang Island! The rest of us is having good time taking pictures. We arrived at the Redang marine park, It is so beautiful and a lot of people too! go for snorkeling - not as pretty as d lagoon area- but i saw a big Garp fish!! the rest almost the same fish i saw before. Then we took several photos and moved on to the Long beach area.

The Long Beach area is 100 x more beautiful with the sandy beach and damn clear water!! i'm falling in love with this place. I can't wait to go there again next month! It's more happening than Perhentian, a lot of people especially chinesse, like what Robbo said "There's a colony of chinesse everywhere" hahha. Well, EJ had a great laugh everytime Robboo said that. hahha... None of us snorkeling here except for Robbo. I walk along the Long beach area with Ridhwan and went in to the more more tea in souvenir shop. Super hot weather! Then, along the beach there's a place, they have all the sounds systems preparation for the Mothers day beach party later at 5 pm. Too bad i can't joined. They play a nice songs, so i decided to just lying down on the swing under the coconut tree while waiting for the rest of them to pass me. We had only 1 hour there . So, peaceful, beautiful and windy.

After that, we went to the last stop - Pulau Lima area, hoping to see a shark. Well, again, we have no lucks, we can only see 100 of chinesse colony floating everywhere!! hahaha. But, well although its not as beautiful as d'lagoon area. I'm quite satisfied with the scenary. It's beautiful nonetheless. I saw eel and a big nemo playing hide and seek behind corals. A colony of colourful christmas tree species on the coral. Heheh "colony"

Another 2 hours journey to Perhentian Island. I'm not sleepy at all.. everybody was having a great nap on the boat, i climb upstairs, hang out with Robbo, Romain and Azam. Azam talked about he's life, he's experianced as a divers and so many other things. I think im jealous with his life as the diver master - having fun all the time- uhuks. "I hate my job".

Home sweet home hehe... took bath, had free dinner at Bayu lodge - the food not nice at all- Robbo finished it all for me. We had a great chit chat for a while before its started to rain heavily. :(. EJ had a great laugh with Robbo stories and funny attitude, Romain talking about Switzerland, Jonas so silents due to hang over i guess. For me, iI'm having a good time berfoya-foya with those guys hehhe. The rain start to pour heavily, then Jonas went to sleep, all my friends went to arwana and i just hang out with Robbo at the Cool guy b'fast bar. A lot of tourist hang out upstairs. Nice songs and its so cold! What a nite.

I spend all nite with Robbo, we walk along the beach and i wonder why there's 1 stretch of the beach have no chalet, just a stretch of forest. Its so dark, im pretty scared hehe. I had a great time walking and talking with Robbo, he's a funny guy, nice, a lil bit naughty and a lil bit like Ben too which makes me easily like him more. It's very romantic moment and too bad cause we r far away from each other to make things happens the way we want. I was just being naughty, for fun but then i realised that i really had a great time, laugh and happy with him and i feel frustrated with the situation we face. I hate long distance relationship, but i can if i want too hehe.. well whatever it is, time and sincererity will tell, if he really sincere.. i'm ok with it.. if not, huisiow la hahha. Since Ben, i dont really wanna hope for anything... i'm scared to feel the terrible broken heart again. I haate those feelings. But i think i really like this Robo guy hehhe. I guess :P.

Later, i barely sleep, i can't sleep at all... just thinking about what had happened last nite.. sweet, nice but bitter when to think about our situation.. its really suck ok! This is the first time ever i had a super fast relationship hahhaha..maybe because he's likely like Ben, or maybe he's too brave to show he's feeling. What ever... It's hard to work anyway, hehe plus i dont know how true he was towards me. So, i have to put everything aside cause i have a boring life n job in front of me!!! I dont want to leave in fantasy life no more. Life is bitter when u can't get what u want. :(

Well enough for the nite, so i woke up at 6 and sit on the swing watching the life in front of me. The warm, sweet breeze of Perhentian. My last day having fun. Teik Mun joined me on the swing and watching the sun rise while chit chat. We got free alu alu divers t-shirt!! hehe, they r really a nice people. I will go to the same place again! We left the place at 10.40 am, arrive at jetty 1 our later. Had a nice, tasty lunch at Sakura restaurant. We waited for our food for 40mnts!! and thanx to that, we missed our filght waaawaaaa.. So, it means our budget added with RM177 for another plane ticket. Its horrible huhuhu..

Well, i'm tired of typing already hehe. so that's all about my vacation n lil romance i had at Perhentian Island. I missed the place!!

Enjoy my Perhentian Pic in photobucket http://s230.photobucket.com/albums/ee62/z-LaN/My%20Vacations/Perhentian%20Island%202008/

Yoda

2008-04-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

Yoda & Tam

Yesterday i’m not in time to send my lovey Yoda to clinic due to heavy jam, and I regretted cause it was too late to save her, she died today. Another kitten died - Yoda & Tam - and only Fluffy left now (3rd Generation). Yoda was the cutest, weird looking (she really looks like Master Yoda) and most beautiful kitten i ever had and i do feel terrible and fell sad to lose her.

A Lot Like ........

2008-04-16T16:20:00.000+08:00

Huaargghhh..i'm yawning n stretching every 2 mnts! trying very hard to be awake today. I'm still stuck at JUPEM, can't go home yet due to this heavy rain. I spend all day today chating and read about ArSDE & SQL Server. I couldn't understand a single damn thing about the lecture contents. "It is hard work, Ok! Ok!, I'll do my work, Give me some shoes!" (the GLA workers in command and conquer dialogues) hehehe...

Last saturday i watched a movie called "A lot like love", played by Ashton Kutcher and the heroine is unidentified. It was a simple and interesting movie to me. I really love it! I'm totally fell in love with the "Martin-Ashton Kutcher" charactor. He was so playful, funny, crazy, unpredictable, unique and ambitious. I'm seriously crazy about this type of guy!! The guy who can make me laugh and happy and can surprise me all the time, a guy who can never makes me bore with all he's jokes, he's mumbling, he's smart brain, and he's ambitions as well as he's naughty spastic charactors. Aint it weird, cause it's hard for me to find this type of guy, so sad uhuks. Oh...n... it makes me missed something uhuks. At the end of the day i knew it was actually "A Lot Like Ben". Yeah.. i missed those days too much.......

Ok. the rain has stopped, i'm off from here and am going to take my cats to meet the handsome DR Christopher!!! hahaha.. ciou!

2008-04-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

Whoa.. its so cold in here!! Its raining heavily today.. can't stand the cold.. makes me wanna pee pee all the time uhuks.. tired la.. all because of my lil 'pundi' i guess hahaha.. what other reasons i can think off besides having a tiny 'pundi'?? my kidney not functioning effectively? its lazy to process, thus its just throw away exactly the same amount of water i dranks?? haha what ever it is..im tired to go to toilet..n its so cold!!!

By, the way... my attempts to go to river has been cancelled again due to this rainy weather. I just went to my hometown Lenggeng to see my granddad land over there which i never been too since i was 13 i guess. A lot of changes and development have been made. Impressive! Then, we went for window shopping as my mom are starting to buy some 'accesories' for Raya uhuks.. too early ma.. but its ok at least we can start buying things bit by bit... well i can't wait till the end of this month! hehehe...

Do u know how disgusting it can be for a 'man' to get pregnant? a women with tiny penis having a baby???!! YUCKS!! i really wanna puke! http://www.celebitchy.com/10590/pregnant_transgender_man_on_oprah/

2008-04-04T12:45:00.000+08:00

Yippie training is over!!!! Wow, i never thought i do had a great time teaching my students about GIS hehe. Its a big challenge though, cause they asked a lot of detailed questions- its a big surprise i can answer them all hahhaa- thats the best part!

Do u guys like my blog? the music? :P i think the music suits this skin and the mood for now. I'll change the music later depends on my mood of the week hehe. I don't know how long this blog can survive cause i'm such a lazy writer, always write crapts swing mood thingy, but i'll try my best to make this blog normal :P.... and well, kind of malu with my broken n not so superb english like some people i know :D.. nevermind la.. as long as u guys understand kan... :D

This weekend i plan to go to river if i can.. i need the river stone to rub my crack ugly foot!! It's getting worst! uhuks.... its just a plan.. i have to survive with only rm170 until the end of month.. poor me...

ok ciou! i wanna go home feed my cats and lepaks..

2008-03-28T09:39:00.000+08:00

I'm trying my new blog skin!