It's all about childish & greediness

Life has been super bz with works. My life is all about my works day and night. 2 projects to be delivered at the same time which is in another 2 weeks. Lots of drama going on. I slept at 1-2 am lately. My body aching all over... i need a massage. Pheewww..

Today was so nice but still damn tiring, cause i went to KL looking for tiles, toiletries and kitchen accessories. Yes, my loan is approved so hopefully everything went fine with my house renovation.

Me n Rafiee went to Petaling street 2 times tonight and almost bump a savvy yer.. nasib baik klu tak bertambah lagi la drama di bulan ini. After he got his LV bag, we went lepak at syed eating satay. Yeah i missed my lepak time. Can't wait for my project to finish. So this is all the updates for now. But this is not really the reasons of today title. Let me tell u about childish and greediness.

Lets start with greediness...

Today i just found out 1 of the reasons why that bitch did what she did. I know i suppose to close this case. But i feel restless if i didnt write about it. Cause the reason is so sickening n unbelievable n i hate people yang tak sedar diri ni.

U wanna know why? Cause that bitch claim it is all because of her ONLY hard works. So she have d right to do what she did (in an "innocent" way cause i bet up till now she thought she's not doing anything bad towards us). She said:

1- She do all the works

2- She was the one who search for customers

3- 90% of the customers deal with her

4- I didnt do any work at all

5- She was the only 1 who promoting us

6- She do most of the COD(as she claimed)

Does everyone know how partnership works? Does all the partner do the same work? yes and no right. In this business, she work as the marketing here cause i know she's good in marketing plus she have lots of time at her office. so clearly that's what her part is.

As for i am, im doing the management, dealing with dealers, money, and i'm doing all the COD at giant Kelana Jaya, answering all the emails, planing lots of things. At the same time, i do my part promoting our website and deal with customers too.

But that's what partnership is about, having to work together as a team. If u want to think what is right and who has the most domination upon this business just by "getting us all the customers", lets list out my part:

1- I was the 1 who took her to our very first supplier.

2- I was the 1 who trigger us to create our blogshop and start the business

3- I was the 1 who provides the CAPITAL to buy from China

4- I was the 1 who have to take loan to get some CAPITAL

5- I was the 1 who knows where to find the China supplier (and later i teach her which i regreted)

6- I was the 1 who deal with China Supplier (and later i teach her which i regreted)

7- I was the 1 who take responsibility transferring money and did all d dealings with China supplier

So, the summary from the lists above,

I WAS THE 1 TO TRIGGER EVERYTHING IN THE FIRST PLACE!

So, without all this triggering happened, there wont be any Kinky at all!! And off course what she claimed as "all was her hard work and me not doing any work" is useless and no point!!!

Unbelievable i'm living and sharing part of my life for 14 years with a greedy, bimbo and tk sedar diri like this. Why all of us said she's greedy?:

1- She's having this business together with me but she quit and make her own, sell way cheaper then me to steal all the customers.

2- She thought she was the 1 who making us having all the customers and sales thus she suppose to have all the profits, so why would she wants the money from HER CUSTOMERS going into my bank right?.

3- She decided to have her own blogshop once she saw this business is profitable, by cuting our business in not professional way.

4- She dont understand how team works, thus she thought i didnt do any job at all. So it's like im getting all the money because of her.

5- She wants to have the business(money) all by herself only. She don't care about doing it together to make money.

Nah.. i dont need to explain more cause everybody knows how greedy she is.

Anyway, there's always a karma and hikmah behind everything that happen. I'm so glad this happened earlier b4 it's too late. Now i like the opportunity that we had. Hehehe.. i'm loving it and thank God she was out b4 it happens.

About childish..

Yeah this is another shit i have to face this month. Cleaning up someone mess. It's about my team leader. He's our boss most fav engineer. Why? because he's good in talking "big"about his cleverness. But now it was all pecah kedebom terbongkar rahsia.. Who was he all this while???

He just a big fat liar and the biggest childish i ever known. His irresponsibilities has put our project at a stakes, critical condition which we dont know what's going to happen in 2 more weeks.

1 thing i dont understand, this type of people, they dont feel ashame of what they did and they dont feel what they did is wrong.

All this while he was lying about his work, telling our big boss that he finished all his job. But when we checked and tested it.. 80% of his work doesnt work. Can u believe it?? n yet, he still lying about the status even though our boss has found out what happened. OMG.

Everybody dont like his way n nobody bother when he' leaved this company. A few days ago.. he came to our office brought his new boss and talking about making business together. I bet he has feed his new boss with his sweet mouth!

No way me n my colleague going to work with him anymore. He's just a big fat liar. Let's see how long he can live with his attitude in his new office.

I can wait for our trip to Koh Lipe.. i need a holiday badly...

I am so happy

I never felt this relief and so happy... I have throw away my burden about that bitch. Yes that bitch.. Just to think about it again, we can't really trust anybody in this world. Who knows one day ur closest friend will call u a black pig and start cursing ur physical.

The funny part is, this bitch didn't realize that she became what she is now because of her transformation. Yeah she have a very low self-esteem. So to turn out to be a butterfly, she have to shave her big (bigger then me) triangle-square eyebrow, pluck her mustache and straighten her hair. I'm sure if she remain all those things, her husband will never even notice her in the first place! I still remember how Ben laugh like hell when he saw her ID card before her transformed. Yet, she wants to kutuk orang lain? Dasar tak sedar diri.

I'm not that surprised why she still don't understand why me n rafiee get so upset with her that we felt she stabbed us. Ok let me tell the story...

What u do if u care about someone? U will want them to be successful and happy rite? Well that's what i did. I know her husband always instable, have problems with work, colleagues hate him especially his boses, always on contracts and have lots of debt. So if i can get her being my partner do something n make extra income this will help her too.

We used to have dreams about being a successful person. I always think of having my own lingerie line.. then 1 day, when i found the supplier, i decided to sell it in blog. The first thing i think off was having that bitch as my business partner though i can do that all myself silently!! But i dont do that. Why? because i care about her. There are other people who want to join me but i said "No, i can't i will make Syareena my business partner cause this is our dreams" this is what comes out from my mouth all the time.

From there, i start buy n selling lingeries but it's not enough, i want to try further and gamble with china supplier. So i took a loan so that we can have a bigger capital to make the business bloom. I dont care if i have to take the loan n that bitch just have to pay me every month. This is what im willing to do! In my head i always thinking about us being successful. So i dont really berkira much.

Then things start to change. I notice her changes, at the same time she start to push me away.. I give space to her and i just cant believe that bitch said i dont care about her, whenever i called or sms she dont care to reply but she can call, ym and contact rafiee! WTF! Then when i asked her to stay with Kinky.. she gives me unevitable reasons so that she have to quit. Do u know how i felt that time? I am so sad cause its not even 1 year and all my dreams about us being successful is just merely a game to her... which obviously she DONT care at all.

So fine, im really fed up with that bitch. Then she told me she's gonna stay in Perak but tadaaaa. She stayed there for 1 week n came back here and when i asked to hang out she dont want. n yet blame me for not care for her? WTF!

Then, 1 day i had an email telling me about that bitch new business. So what do u think i will feel?? Of course i feel anger! I just cant believe she do this to me! I cant believe she quit just to make her own blogshop! I said to myself.. "she's fooling me all this while, she never care about our business at all. She just want to suck my brain, and when its enough.. she will do it herself!!" It's not only me.. u can ask anybody about this and everybody will said it's so bad! So it's logic for me to get angry!!!

All this while i take her, bring her in and work hard to make us success - she quit - she make her own lingeries business with the same supplier with my customers and with a way cheaper price - and yet she dont feel that she HURT us?? Is this a friend??? Can u call this a friend?? She surely dont have heart at all!

Definitely NO, she dont care about her friends. That's why she dont feel it is a bad thing to do. She think oh this is business world. FUCK YOU! Then she attack saying me as im always right always show off over the head and always being a moronic?? Aint this a personal attack? So i just have to spill it.. n yes i am so very2 reliefed i spilled it on her face hehe..

Thats the best feeling of relief i ever felt in years. My burden about thinking of her all this time has been thrown away with only a few paragraphs. I should do that way earlier...

Then after seeing that bitch got sawan babi with her husband. It makes me smile even more cause well people saw that she's being at her lowest point. People read her curse as "I just cant believe Syareena is like this" nobody said "i cant believe Zilan is like this" hahaha .. i'm so so happy...

Apart from that, i make her show the real her.. what are in her black mud shit deep in her heart all this years about me. I think she have to do a lot of samak haha.. yerla she's been with the pig for half of her life! Nobody believe her though. Off course cause she makes fool of her ownself in facebook. Again that makes me sooo happy!!!

Im sure she wont believe a thing i said here. Cause for her i'm acting like im always right all the time. I bet, if she had a "lower" friend in high school, she wont even passed her SPM haha.. it's so obvious what she can be when she's around with the "lower" friend of hers in Uitm.. it only took her 1 semester to graduate! haha.. so u should be thankful that u have good friends (all the hanjeng) here. Just look at how u turn out to be when u with ur husband. Nobody believe that u r what u r now. Especially after reading ur comment about me. :)

Well, i really want to c how far she can go with her own brain hehe. Maybe this is the time she can tell the world that she does has a brain after all. So later she can't blame me right?

Whatever happen after this, u just go to hell k! .Don't beg me to accept u back.. sanggup ker jilat air ludah sendiri??? kahkahkah.

I still cant stop thinking about her baby.. i was wondering akan terkenan kah? cause u know being pregnant is so sensitive! My aunt had an experience b4. When she pregnant a sales person came to her house and out of nowhere she just said in her heart "ewww he's so black", when she gives birth, her daughter has black skin as the guy he hina, though her parenst has fair skin..

So i was wondering, what will it be when that bitch cursed about me for 1/2 hours?? Plus its not only the mother but the farther cursing me too! Thats a double point isn't? The best part is she does said black pig, ugly, hairy, stinky.. what a cool combination. Uhh...Uhh i cant wait!!

Hahahaha..

Never felt this happy for years....Case closed for good! Amin.

This is what Syareena really thinks of me after 14 years of friendship

Want to know when people can get sawan babi? Yeah when they have no point to talk and actually all this while their heart is full of hatred to me which im surprise i dont know (for example ebeg). Off course la i dont know im that horrible towards her or perhaps toward everyone in this world even to the worms in the ground, cause all this time she have the sweet mouth who makes u feel like she actually is ur real friend. But hey, i think maybe because nobody wants to befriend with her, i mean to make her their very2 best friend. Thats why she stuck with me for 14 years.

Untill recently, there r someone who actually adore her n worship her come to her rescue. All of a sudden she realized, "hey why all this while im being her dog?". Well thats what she call my friends (actually her friends too), they all hanjeng katanyer.

All this while, all my words that she listened, all my ideas ( especially lingeries) that she listened and help me do is actually something that she thought as "berlagak macam pandai, everything she knew, mmg dasar berlagak, everybody hate her for that" everything tu!! hebat betul. Well those are things she herself working on right now as well! Yeah there are people who suck ur brain first then when its enough.. they flew away and use the brain that she called as "berlagak pandai" for her own purpose. Well at least i have degree and i am successful in a way kan. Not some one yang menganggur haha.

Misai ni tangkal rupanya! baru aku tau gituuu haha.. Well, at least with this misai, i had feel real love. The real love that she never had even though dah buntingkan.. What to do dah ader baby kena la stick kan. Takkan nk jadi ibu tunggal. Oh sorry, i think she already found the love now since well it looks like both of them are so perfect to be together (just check out their babling below). By the way for ur information Ilah, she chose u cause she scared she will be anak dara tua, yerlah at that time being dump 3 times, and nobody wants to love her sincerely. If not, u r just not her taste.. u r bright enough to use money to persuade her.

Why she had been dump by 3 guys when she is way beautiful and prettier and smells so good and off course not complaining and not berlagak? Well its them to know what's the reason right?? hehe well u can guess why if u r clever enough.

Well, my family is a nice people who don't pretend to be so charming and so nice and dont have the busuk hati kind towards her, Infact they all love her the way she is and kept on praise her beauty and softness(rupanya berlakon jer kot selama ni). But well i never thought that her family can be talam dua muka, infact, when did i berlagak with her parents, i can count - less then 10 hours i ever talk or sembang with her mother for 14 yrs!!!? Funny, or perhaps her parents feel that way because im successful? and their daughter not? Only God knows right.

Well, since im so fucking bad, dark, and ugly, got mustache and always over the head towards all my friends. I was wondering, are all (at least more then 5 friends) of them are pretending to be my friends? She who are so nice, beautiful, soft person and lovely has no friends at all? (well who wants to be called hanjeng right? plus besides us who else close to her???? NONE)

Yeah i wonder why.

That is why when someone have hatred comes in between, and u support them. U can end up being alone. I'm so sorry for her.

My US pics

Finally i manage to upload more pics of me in USA in Photobucket. So check it out ok. :)

http://s230.photobucket.com/albums/ee62/z-LaN/My%20Vacations/USA%202009/?albumview=slideshow

Selamat Hari Raya

I would like to wish all my friends

Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin

Almaklum la setahun ni penuh dengan segala keje2 keji mengeji, ngumpat mengumpat, hina menghina, syak wasangka, terlepas kata atau sebagainyer la yang mendatangkan dosa secara sengaja atau tk sengaja.

Maka dihari baik dan dibulan baik ini aku mohon ampun dan maaf serta halalkan makan dan minum aku yer.

Untuk tahun ni maaf la tkder open house, tapi still open untuk sesiapa yang nak datang raya. bagi tau la awal2 takut dapat rumah kosong plak :p

Buka Pose di Thai Thai

Sorry for not updating my blog. Im super bz with my work – that damn e-Tanah project.  Why i call it damn? because out of sudden, those people came back to us and ask for our services and preparation for proof of concept. It was like 2 weeks ago. Imagine i have to recall the application that we have built 2 years ago in 2 weeks, plus additional functions request by them! Correction here.. i didn’t built anything cause its all codings, programming stuff. Those are invented by Tony. Yeah so u can guess it right??? I need to understand those codes in 2 weeks! Off course i dont understand anything.. so as usual had to ask help from the only programmers we have in our company.. if she resign, we all doomed i tell u.

I was struggling day and night to prepare this e-tanah presentation. Next wednesday gonna be hell for me. Cant wait for this thing to finish. But there are 2 more things 2 settle until end of year. This is crazy!

So last Monday Rafiee officially becomes my new partner. I’m so glad for that. I hope Rafiee wont be the “half way” person too like someone i know. Hopefully la.. Right Rafiee?? u promise ur commitment so i hope we can make our “dreams”comes true soon hehehe.

Acky died last 2 weeks.. :( im gonna miss him.

We had a good dinner at Thai Thai.. the steamed fish was so delicious but Tom Yam is just ok. These food is way better then buffet at Sunway Hotel. So enjoy the pics ya!

 

  

Oh! one more things.. i cant believe i spend Rm1k++ for a gold bracelet.. jeez.. US gives me a bad bad shopping habit.

Memories

There are times i’m so eager to write about my vacations or occasions however i forgot 2 put it due to time constraints. So here are some pics to share:

KL TOWER REVOLVING RESTAURANT

Me infront of KL Tower; KL tower: View from the restaurant - 250m above sea level

KLCC area

    

The Restaurant

Looking down from here is pretty scary, so at first i took pic sitting next to the window. Then a waiter approach me n demonstrate to me that he can lie down on the window and asked me to do the same thing while he took my pic. I was pretty nervous but then i just do it! so here 2 of the pics me lying down on the window :p

CAMERON HIGHLAND

Strawberry park resorts, nice place to stay

   

Strawberry farm

 

Tea Boh farm

 

Cameron Bharat plantation tea shop

Lata Iskandar and the right pic is Todi fruit and that’s the juice really nice, taste like sea coconut

MORIB

Missed my long hair :(

The best activities was built our first sand castle ever! never thought we made it

   

The uncle on the right actually wanted to create his own castle, but he end up dig a hole n sleep in it hahah.

BAGAN LALANG

One of my favourites photo album, we have great time there and took lots of beautiful happy, fun pics…. n why  i dont hv the rest of our pics jumping n playing with our shadows??????? got to find it first. So guys, when is our next trip???

   

Aku nak Merapu

Malam tadi aku dah merapu dgn Avik, lama giler tak merapu. Setiap kali aku merapu atau pun otak aku tgh light headed aku prone utk bocorkan rahsia diri sendiri. Well, kiranya mamat tu bertuah la dpt korek satu rahsia evil aku. Giler apa aku nie… Kelakarkan, orang yang aku tk pernh jumpa n sgt jauh tulah yang lebih mudah utk aku berbincang, berborak, share rahsia and care psl aku. Tapi lagi sorang tuh nth mana menghilang la plak. Ni mesti kes br pindah rumah baru ngn awek dier tu, tk suka aku bila pikir psl awek dier. Bosannyer dier tkder sbb dier antara penceria hari2 aku yang plg utama. Somehow dier mmg best. How i wish ader org mcm tu kt Malaysia ni ha.  

Sejak balik dr US aku rasa makin banyak tekanan. Tekanan palig berat adalah bila aku terpaksa bgn tidor setiap pagi dengan rasa yg sgt berat and menyampah untuk pergi ke ofis. Aku dah thp mmg tk kuasa n dh tk tahan ngn keje aku. Aku dah bosan n dah muak. Daripada aku berminat dengan GIS, aku terus hilang minat sbb keje aku tak fit my expectations. 3 thn dah cukup lama untuk aku beri harapan yang tinggi tapi aku tetap akan dihampakan. Lagi satu thn utk aku redah… huhu.

2 – 3 hari lepas aku baca pasal sejarah minangkabau. Dpd sejarah tu, orang minangkabau sangat dikenali dengan kaum yang mementingkan pelajaran, bijak, menghasilkan ramai ilmuan dan pemimpin yang hebat serta orang yang paling kuat merantau dan hebat berdagang. Patutla selagi aku tk berjaya dalam perniagaan aku rasa sangat2 tk tenteram. Aku jadi resah. Mungkin sbb dah ader dlm darah kan. Bukan sebab aku materialistik, tapi sbb aku nak menjadi seorang yang sangat berjaya yang bermula dari bwh. Sesuatu yang aku ingin banggakan. 

Setiap kali aku dapat satu idea perniagaan, aku dapat rasakan perasaan yang sgt berkobar2 untuk menjayakan idea aku tuh. Tapi masalah aku, aku bukan sorang yang akan memulakan sesuatu. Pendek kata sangat pemalas and takut gak hehe. Aku lebih suka untuk bagi idea and improves things from there. Tapi sejak awal thn ni aku cuba untuk berubah, buat sesuatu yang berbeza sbb aku dah bosan ngn everyday life aku. Mmg susah kalau tkder siapa utk back up aku. Waktu2 tu la aku akan rasa sangat2 lonely and sepi. Saat2 tula aku mengharapkan seseorang utk berada disamping aku n care and bagi semangat yg cukup utk aku. Saat itulah aku berfikir, semuanya dah berubah. Aku tak rasa sesecure dulu lagi.

Maka aku terpaksa mengignore everything and just accept it the way it is. Aku dah tkder orang yang boleh aku buat borak in depth or share something deep with passion like it was b4. Somehow those people have gone. At the age of 27 and  aku still takder rumah, takder nama and takder apa2 yang boleh dibanggakan adalah sangat2 depressing. Aku mmg jeles tgk orang yang berjaya, aku mmg jeles sbb kenapa aku tk  boleh jadi mcm diorg? Kenapa aku masih ditakuk lama? Kenapa aku tk buat sesuatu  utk jadi mcm diorg?

Sometimes mmg aku ader terpikir nak laki kaya jer n just stay at home main PS 3… boleh? hahaha. Semua duk kecoh pasal bila aku nak kawin, bila aku nak ader bf. Hmm.. mmg aku langsung tk pedulik. Macam la aku tk leh  hidup tanpa laki. Kalau ader suami aku.. adalah tu klu tkder apa aku boleh buat pun. Aku tkder kuasa nak tentukan. Apa2 pun ini bukan priority aku skang. Tambahan dgn segala jenis laki disekeliling aku ni buat aku lagi susah nak percaya kt lelaki. So, aku tkder masa nak pikir secara serious psl kaum ni. Lagi pun aku mmg tk leh nk kikis perangai choosy aku. Kalau ader yang berkenan pun jenis tak sunat jugak. Camner aku nak elakkan? Dahlah jenis tk sunat pastu bengap in “common sense and indepth” matters. Lagilah payah. Pelik apasal susah sgt nak carik lelaki yang boleh buat aku happy, buat aku impress and buat aku rasa tak bosan? senang jer kan kriteria tu hahaha.. :p

So back psl business nie... lagi satu masalah aku nampak akan timbul. Kenapala tkder orang yang betul2 serious kt sekeliling aku? Susah betullah. Ni yang tambah depress nih. Nyampah betul nk pikir. tapi apa leh buat dugaan. Sometimes aku menyesal jugak kenapa aku tk pernh berkeras dengan apa yang aku suka. ngn apa yang aku betul2 nak jadi? Aku suka binatang, aku suka benda2 sains and biologi, genetik, sejarah, psychology… benda2 ni aku mmg suka tapi kenapa aku tak apply utk bidang2 nie dulu? Yer semata2 takut tkder keje bila dah habis belajar. But to think of it. Better aku belajar n buat apa yang aku betul2 suka. So aku takkan rasa daily life aku wasted bila aku buat sesuatu yang aku tk suka.

Semua manusia tk pernh puas, yer betul tp nak buat mcm mana klu mmg rasa tk puas. betul tak? Still kita ader masa utk ubah segalanya. In my case now if only aku ader banyak duit utk buat apa yang aku nak buat huhu.. berangan la. Tapi dr angan2la br akan ader kejayaan. Aku mmg tk suka orang yang tk jauh pandangan and tk tinggi angan2. Aku suka orang yang mempunyai cita2 n akan cuba capai cita2 dier walau apapun terjadi. Aku pun nak jadi orang yg mcm nie… Aku dah waste 8 yrs of my life for not doing anything i want to do and planned since i was in school. what a waste. So i ought not to waste anymore time. Aku tk pedulikla. aku tetap akan cuba secara serious dlm 1 thn nie. When my expectations achieved… aku dgn senang hati akan melompat ke dunia baru aku sepenuh masa. 1 year… 365 days… 8760 hours. I need my luck badly!!!

Bilalah gossip girl nak sambung nie. Talking about gossip girls, mmg aku mengharapkan utk mempunyai relationship mcm S & B and to have someone like C. Tapi aku rasa in reality there’s no such thing as that. Mengarut je. Tapi kalau ader mmg sgt la best. What to do, human are selfish, all of us are selfish. I dont think those type of caring really wujud. Berangan la… sgt2 berangan. Yup sometimes dengan beranganla aku boleh lupakan banyak benda and aku boleh mengukir senyuman semula…

Nora’s Engagement Day

Exclusive Nora’s pic here, even Nora doesn’t have it yet haha. Congrat’s Nora& Hisham.

Unbelievable!!

I had 2 ridiculous horror dreams last night prevent me from sleeping. I stay awake from 4 am updating my blog and other things i have left for a month. i played with my cats while waiting everybody to woke up. I felt better then yesterday though my sore throats and coughs still the same.

Around 8 am i drove to OU dropped my bro there and drove to University Hospital. I went to the public clinic took my number and sit there alone waiting to be registered. I got few sms from my collegues which i felt a bit irritating cause i'm nervous and at the same time people kept asking my condition and telling me to go to Hospital and yadayadayada.. So i just silent my phone and waited while filling up my stomach with crab balls and some other stuffs.

About 10.30 my number appear i went to the desk and told her i want to check for H1n1. She told me i suppose to go to the emergency ward instead. This makes me even nervous. So i walked to the emergency ward, saw nurses helping helpless people from ambulance, some people are not breathing and there's a guy with blood on his hand and no body to attend my registration. So i keep on waiting, about 1/2 hour i manage to registered and have to wait in front of Consultation room.

This is the pain in the ass for me. For real emergency ward waiting time is way longer then their normal clinics! I just sit there, walked back and forth looking at people with 'what the fuck u looking at' look. After 1 hour or so they called me into the consultancy room and again asking me whats wrong with me. Why the hell they asking me that question in the first place? The should write it down on my profile duhh! So, they check my temperature n my blood preassure i guess then ask me to wait AGAIN.

Tick Tock Tick Tock... The guy who has blood on his hand that came earlier then me is still waiting. That time all i can think off was, if i had emergency i will never go to government cause that freaking pain in the hand and yet nobody take care of ur wound for more then 3 hours?? I'm getting angrier and forgot about the h1n1 thing, it's almost 2.30 pm, i'm so hungry and yet i dont know when they will call my name.

that moment all i can imagine was to make chaos in that building, play dead, or smash their windows, punch anyone who walk pass me, or just shout like crazy monster. Anything as long as i dont need to wait. If its not because of my bos want me to go to Hospital i really dont care n just walked out from there. Well, i already walked to the lift when they call my name finally.

Ok this is the best part.... (though some of the dialog are "upside down" but the content is still the same)

I walked in, the Dr greet me and yes the famous questions

Dr: "why? what's wrong"? , i smiled and said

Me: "I wanna check for H1N1"

Dr: "Ok, so when did the symptom appear? since when?"

Me: "Since monday, had terrible coughs and flu"

Dr:"Do u have fever?"

Me: "On monday to wednesday but today im ok a bit"

Dr: "Yeah u don't have fever today, so do u have asthma?"

Me: "No"

Dr: "Do u have heart disease, diabetes, high blood preassure or any critical disease?"

Me: "Not that i know, i never checked"

Dr:"So u dont have those critical disease, and u dont have fever. ok let me check ur breath"

So she's checking my breathing.

Dr:"Ok, i will give u Panadol and if u dont want to take this medicine is fine with me too"

Me:" So, u don't need to check whether i have H1n1 or not?"

Dr: "No, u still young, strong probably if u get H1n1 it will just cure by itself"

Me: "U mean there is no test like blood test or anything to make sure i dont have H1n1? Cause my boss really want to make sure im free from that virus or else he wont let me in the office"

Dr: "There is, but that only for people who have critical disease and if u have difficulties breathing"

At this point i already laugh with disbelief look at her.. she understand my look and said

Dr:"Well i probably had lots of H1n1 virusses in my body but well i'm still ok"

What the fuck - i think

Me:"So when should i come here in case i have H1n1? when i can't breath?"

Dr: "yeah u can come here when u have difficulties to breath (laughing her head off) but not until u can't breath that will be too late.. then only we do the test to u"

Dr: "I really dont understand why young people always come to check for H1n1 it should be old people that need to be checked. Don't worry the minor h1n1 can be cure with normal medicine, and well u can come if u have difficulties to breath. Thanks"

Can u believe it??? I waited for about 5 hours in the hospital to get a panadol "if i want to" and "we only checked if u have difficulties to breath" oh and "do come again if u have difficulties to breath"!!!

It's amazing! If it's so that "nah its nothing to worry about way of treatment", then why the hell they make chaos about who ever have the symptoms or have direct contact with the patient u must go n check to hospital???

Better make a big sign saying "If u have difficulties to breath or i must said almost die then only we checked whether u infected or not" WHAT THE FUCK!

Wasting my time. and if i'm dead cause i dont know whether i have heart disease or high blood preassure or diabetes then who to blame??

Oh yeah.. if i have difficulties to breath i'm sure it will take another 4 hours for my turn to be checked. Or as per my experience, i dont have asthma, so what they did was they just ask me to sit and wait like normal patient though i said i have difficulties to breath. They dont care unless u faint that instance. Stupid. Oh yeah, 1 fucking Dr told me jenis perli nih .. next time try not to wear tight bra or tight shirt. Helloooo those symtoms was due to depression not due to bra or shirt idiot. I know la when i cant breath due to my bra or shirt. Duhhh!!!

That's why i hate hospital and Dr.